Dreams Of Mother (share your stories)!

April 25, 2005

Om Namah Shivayah,

I am wondering if some of you could share your experiences of dreams of

Mother. I wonder if there is a connection in the way that she shows herself to

us in dreams and I always love to hear other peoples experiences.

For example, I find that every time she appears to me in a dream, there are no

words exchanged. Everything seems to be communicated in just a smile and I

know exactly what she is saying. I had an amazing dream last night and this is

another example of this....

I currently live in a town I am not happy to be living in, but my father lives

right

down the street. I hadn't spoken with him many years before I moved here,

and now we are just starting to have a relationship again. Before I fell asleep

I asked Amma for guidance on when I would be able to move to a place I

would be happy living in. In the dream I was sitting by her side during

darshan. My father was sitting right in front of me, and Mother looked at me

and smiled and gestured to my father. She didn't say a word, but I knew she

was saying "Put your hands on his back." I put my hands on his back and I felt

his body shaking with laughter. He was laughing so much, and so full of joy. I

looked back at Mother and her eyes told me, "This is why you are here."

No words were exchanged, just like in every dream I have had of Mother...but

the message came through very clearly. In another dream I was walking with

her and I had realized I had forgotten my wallet. We were leaving the darshan

hall together and I became panicked that I had forgotten my wallet

somewhere. She just looked at me and laughed, laughed, laughed. I knew

exactly what she was saying, again, without words.

In fact, many dreams I have had of Mother I am saying or doing something

and she is just laughing at me. In the dreams, I start to get annoyed....and I

want to say "Why do you keep laughing at me?".....but somewhere at a gut

level, I know it is all love and she is just amused by the actions or thoughts

of

this silly child!

Does anyone find that when they dream of Mother it colors their entire day? I

wake up with such an amazing feeling every time. I spend the day so filled

with love that I almost can't handle it. However, it also creates an intense

yearning to melt into the beloved or merge with her somehow. So, in a sense

these dreams are bittersweet because they do create a wonderful feeling of

joy but at the same time sadness at being away from Amma's physical body.

Only when I dream of Mother is my entire day (sometimes even many days

after) is affected by it on a grand level.

I have learned that we cannot will a dream of Mother. I have tried this several

times. I would ask Mother as I fell asleep to come to me in a dream. Not once

has she come when I have asked....it is always a wonderful surprise. The

dreams only happen about once every few months, if not less. However, this

week I have been blessed to have two very insightful dreams that colored my

waking life to an extent that 10 years of therapy could not do.

The dreams are always very lucid and clear, and she is always beaming a

smile through the entire dream, even if I am confused or distraught in the

dream, she is just there smiling at me.

Many months before I had my first darshan (0r even knew what darshan was

or how it worked!) I had a dream of the exact room and the exact faces of the

people who surround Mother. It was almost as if I pre-lived the darshan in a

dream.

Another time, I had a dream that I was walking along an empty beach and I

saw Mother at the very end of it. I ran to her and fell at her feet in tears.

She

took her finger and traced some letters on the back of my neck over and over

again and it began to burn and sting. She traced her finger around my neck

for what seemed like an hour until the pain was so unberable it just became

numb, then she smiled at me and disappeared. ....almost a year later and after

having long erased the dream from my memory, I had decided to have a

tattoo of flowers above "Ammachi" put on my neck. As I sat there in the chair,

it

burned with so much pain that I was unsure if I could go through with

it.....then

I remembered the DREAM!! I had experienced the whole thing in a dream,

except it was Mother's hand drawing it. As I sat there, I remembered the

dream and the pain instantly subsided.

In the dreams, she never speaks in words....she is always smiling...the colors

are very lucid....they fill me with joy for the entire day to the point where I

am

sometimes at the verge of tears from the joy....and they create a tremendous

sense of longing but also of immense hope, as if the world is full of magic and

anything is possible.

Please share your dream experiences! I would love to hear if there are any

parallels in the way Mother expresses herself in our sleeping lives.

In Amma,

Michelle

April 25, 2005

Namah Shivaya Michelle,

Just out of curiosity, are you from Rhode Island?

Thanks

Avinash

(from Connecticut)

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