To Robin on Dream

[Guest guest]

Robin wrote of my dream:

 

An Amusement Park - Relax, take a break from your serious attitude toward

living; laugh, have fun, loosen up.

 

Winding- Are you going in circles? Chart a direction and go towards it. Stop

going in circles.

 

Blanket /Cover - Depending on the context, a protection or a hiding from

self and others.

 

You are going through an amusement park "winding" your way through it. You

are going here and there at this difficult time taking the hard way about it.

Take the straight path! ...Stop being so serious about it. Be like a child,

relax and have fun, loosen up! Amma will be smiling at the end of your

difficulty as an accomplishment. Your spiritual growth. She will then "lift you

up"

or the accomplishment will lift your "higher Self" up from the spiritual

growth of your difficulty. She then puts a blanket over you as protection in

your case telling you that you are in God's hands and are always under her

protection.

 

 

 

Dear Robin ~ thank you for this most excellent interpretation of my dream.

You are right ~ I am going in circles, but inside my head and heart. Six years,

when I was very ill, I made a decision to move from the Washington, DC,

area, where my daughter lives and all the friends I had made over 40 years. I

lived with my mother for awhile, but it didn't work out. I have some hard

feelings about what happened there that I am wrestling with, and going around

in

circles about. I know that being honest and authentic with my mother is not a

possibility and that it would only cause upheaval and turmoil in my family.

Yet I have spent all my life being a "good girl," keeping my mouth shut, going

along with the denial about the abuse in my family. For some reason, very

recently, I woke with a strong desire to move back to the DC area because I

miss my daughter so much. But I can't figure out anyway to do it. There is no

straight line, and, being on ssdi, I'm not sure I could afford to live there

anyway.

 

So I have been trying to make peace with where I am and focus on my health,

getting better, and on the life I have here in New Mexico. I know that

children grow up and move away from their parents, and in this case, it was I

who

moved. Now here I am on the other side of the country, and I feel I am missing

my daughter's changes and growth, so I have been in great turmoil about it.

When I find myself going in circles in my mind, I say my mantra that Amma gave

me, and that helps. So you were totally right on, and Amma's protection and

envelopment are all I have to turn to to help me right now. Jai Ma ~ Linda

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

Dearest Nierika,

 

I'm glad that I could help you out. I love helping to interpret dreams it is a

past time hobby when I have the time. Sometimes I feel like Amma speaks through

me to let someone know the message. I hope you realize that Amma is telling you

to relax through this, try not to fight against it, get absorbed into your

spiritual practices and you will worry less and less about what is going on

around you. Play have fun and stop being so serious about it. Your life is

passing you by! You very much remind me of myself. I have been changing greatly

within these past few months, if not the entire year after meeting Amma. I have

changed MORE in this ONE year after meeting Amma, than I have the entire time I

had been Amma's devotee! Which was 4 years. One of the things that has been

changing is not to take life so seriously, whats the point? There are serious

matters of course, and I realize that you might feel responsible to take a stand

with some issues. Then take a stand if that is what you

want and don't look back! If there are things still happening in the family I

suggest stepping up to the plate, no matter the consequence. If it is in the

past then forgive, what is the point in hanging on to the past, its gone. If you

feel really strongly then get out then forgive. Remember things happen because

of OUR karma, we created it in the first place. So we must also forgive

ourselves for whatever caused this to happen in the past. My point and more

importantly Amma's point is to live a little more freely, like a child. No

worries. Have fun. Say Yes! I realize it is hard being away from your daughter,

I was away this past week from mine and missed them like the dickens! Its hard

not to be attached to our children. My guess is that is probably the hardest

"attachment" to release. I Iove them more than anything. I'm always worried

about them. Its part of being a parent. Perhaps you should pray to Amma to hear

your heart. And perhaps this is part of your "accomplishment" in

the dream for a lesson in non attachment. Amma has been very graceful with me.

I had never in all my 30 years lived away from my parents, but last year they

decided to move away to Texas and retire. But Amma graced me being able to visit

not long after at Christmas and my dad lived with me for several months until he

found a job. By the time he left I was READY for him to leave! lol I feel a bit

freer now that they are gone. I can be more of who I am becoming without someone

saying something along the lines of "Well you never did THAT before". Not only

that but I took them for granted. Now when I see them it is so much more

meaningful than it could ever be. I don't really miss them, like I said Amma

gradually weened them away little by little to where it didn't hurt so much, but

there are times once in a while where the pain creeps in and I walk right

through it and then it disappears. I accept that this is the way things are. I

have had so much growth in the past year. Not just

Spiritual growth, but a maturity has set it. I'm more independent where I use

to be afraid and had to have my mom or dad come with me or do it for me. Now I

do it myself, what choice do I have? I also think that I am VERY attached to my

parents. I was always a "good girl". I think that Amma is preparing me (down the

road) for when it is their time it will hurt less. Now I realize that I'm ok, I

can live without them. Of course I'm not ready for them to go by no means, but

at least I know that I can and am independent, to where I never was before. Yes,

I have done a lot of growing in the past year. Plus coming into my 30's I am

free to be who I am in life, and to hell with what people think! Not too young

not too old, yet. lol I hear of all these stories about how difficult their life

is and how hard it has been for them. I have had difficulties yes, but by no

means like others. I don't know if Amma think I am unable to bear them or I am

not ready yet or she took all that karma

away, personally I hope its the latter, but where would the growth in that be?

Why is she so easy on me? I'm not asking for difficulties, but I often wonder

about that. It plays in the back of my head. Why was she so gentle in taking

away my parents? Why do things seem so simple to me? I just don't understand.

 

Difficulties

 

Difficulties are always there. They are part of life. And it is good that they

are there, otherwise there would be no growth. Difficulties are challenges. They

provoke you to work, to think, to find ways to overcome them. The very effort is

essential. So always Take difficulties as blessings. Without them, we would be

nowhere. Bigger difficulties come, that means that existence is looking after

you, it is giving you more challenges. And the more you solve them, the greater

challenges will be waiting for you. Only as the last moment, difficulties

disappear, but that last moment comes only because of difficulties. So never

take any difficultly negatively. Find something positive in it. The same rock

blocking the path can function as a stepping stone. If there were no rock on the

path, you would never rise up. And the very process of going above it, making it

a stepping stone, gives you a new altitude of being. So once you think about

life creatively, then everything is useful and

everything has something to give you. Nothing is meaningless. - Osho

 

I pray you flow with the river, not struggle against it. Your in my prayers.

 

Always at Amma's Lotus Feet,

Robin