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Dear Amritavarshini,

 

I'm so sorry to learn of your difficulties, although I had understood from

the few posts you made that you were experiencing health problems.

I've been praying for you on the list, and will redouble my efforts. I will

also send a little something to your sister. God bless you and keep

you. I look forward to seeing you next summer!

 

Love,

Jyotsna

 

Barbara Edmonds <edmondsb wrote:

 

Dear Brothers and Sisters of Amma,

 

Pride, Pain, Fear, & Hopelessness

 

In asking my name be on your prayer lists for 9 weeks, my pride must

be overcome. Only a few of my brothers and sister devotees of Amma have

been informed of my serious health issues, thus my limited

contributions to the email group discussions. I preferred my needs be

confidential, however am in a panic and have come to experience

hopelessness.

 

The story is:

 

My health had declined since early 2002, limiting my ability to work,

thus living on part time wages. This humbles one rapidly. I liquidated

all assets and cut back on all but the bare necessities. My short

visits to be with Amma have been the gift of other devotees for several

years.

 

I had prepared a lengthy request for prayers & support a few days

before my Dec. 29th cancer surgery and left it in draft form. While

logging on my computer Sunday, Dec 26 th, & listening to “All Things

Considered” on the radio, the tsunami hit Sri Lanka.

 

Preparing to send the request to ease my pain, fear, & financial needs,

I could not justify prayers for myself. My concerns were so miniscule

compared to the hundreds of thousands that were suffering. I held my

email. Each day before my surgery, I read about Amma's relief efforts.

 

Knowing many of Amma’s children were blessed to be in a secure place, I

held my plea. I know that Amma takes perfect care of each of us, yet I

have cried so many tears to Amma from pain & fear that I am dehydrated.

 

I try to remember to be like a bird ready to take flight on a twig

(that may break at any time) and yet, I am worn down and exhausted at

this time.

 

With serious complications from surgery and slow healing, I have been

unable to work from December and likely through mid May.

I have depleted any savings. It has been necessary to use some public

funds, which is humiliating in itself. Three local devotees have

provided what they are able for food and rent this winter.

 

My landlord demands I leave by April. I need to find resources to pack

and move immediately.

 

I need a place to live, finances to be moved (since I cannot lift) and

money for housing changes…. which will take at least $3,000 to cover

late rent, future rent, security deposits, utility set up fees, etc.

 

Even the smallest amounts from my brothers and sisters will be

appreciated. My daughter, Angela, has power of attorney and is managing

my finances from her Illinois home. Please send any gifts made out to

"Angela Edmonds", address to Angela Edmonds 301 East Walker Street,

Macomb, Illinois 61455.

 

With humble thanks for your prayers as well.

 

Om Namah Shivaya,

Amritavarshini

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha!