Amma's lesson

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Namaste Everyone,

 

 

I feel that Amma is trying to get a message across to me the past couple of

weeks. I think she must do this to all of us when we don't see things clearly

she will keep sending the message until it is received fully and completely. It

started with the catastrophic tsunami and all the families the ones who died and

the one who were left grieving. I think it had a big impact with most people in

the world. Then my friend one morning tells that she was in the hospital all

night with a friend of hers who thought he was just mildly sick and it turns out

he had prostrate cancer that spread through his whole body and into his lungs.

He was just married two months ago and is only 27. I thought about him on the

way home when the Tim McGraw song came on "Live Like You Were Dying" and even

though I have heard the song before, I never listen to the words like I did that

day. I cried for a man I did not know. Thinking how precious life was, to make

each day count. And it made me think if I were

to die tomorrow, what would I do? My answer wasn't what I would take from the

world so much, such as sailing the world over, but about what I wanted to leave

behind. What I would want people to remember about me. I would want them to

remember that I was happy, fun and that I like to help people, I wanted to make

my life count for something. I'm always so serious, never playful except on

occasion, I am not a "people person". So I am changing my attitude. Now I wake

up and I tell myself that I might die tomorrow and to use my time wisely. My

attitude has changed, and although its hard at times I remind myself that time

is precious and that we have so little of it here on earth. I thought about all

this. I felt it to an extent. But Amma made it even clearer to me. Amma made it

a little closer to home. So that I could feel the grieving myself. This morning

my grandmother died. And although it was her time and she was past hanging on a

thread, it still saddens me and makes my heart

grieve. Right now I have a lot of confusing thoughts in my head. I lost someone

whom I loved. But my main lesson here is that life is precious. Amma is making

this lesson clear to me. I want to be a better person.

 

I had to take my boss home yesterday and she was talking about her aunt

having cancer and that her mom was visiting in the hospital so I told her I

would take her home, I told her about my grandmother who had Alzheimer's for the

past 10 years and that she needed to move on. This was last night. She died this

morning. I guess she thought it was time too.

 

Amma came to me in a dream last night, she was like a child, playing with me,

touching my cheek and giggling, this and that. Thats all I can remember. But I

remember how comforting she was. I have heard that once Amma initiates you that

she won't let a devotee stray from the path too far, and I believe that it is so

true for myself. She always come to grab me up at just the right moment and puts

me back in her lap until I crawl away again. I don't know if she came to me last

night because she thought I needed comforting for my "dating" situation or

because she knew about my grandmother. I have no one here at the moment to

grieve with me besides the man I am dating, he has been such a sweetheart to me.

No matter what the reasoning was, it sure did feel nice to be with her.

 

I pray that Amma holds her hand

 

At Amma's Feet,

Robin

 

 

 

Facts about my grandmother:

My grandmothers name was Elizabeth Lurea Baragree

I was named after my Grandmother, I have the middle name Lurea

When I was very young we would play Chinese Checkers, she let me and my brother

cheat

She tried to stuff me full of food all the time because she thought I was too

skinny

She use to be a nurse in St Louis

She had one daughter and four sons

She lived on a farm and rode a horse to take care of the animals at the age of

six

She died on January 13 2005 around 9:30am at the age of 96

 

Om Shanti Shanti Shanti

May we all be at peace

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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