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[Guest guest]

Dear All

 

For years now , I am seeing Amma whenever she comes

and for years

I want to ask Amma for mantra or blessing for an item

.. Last year I saw a line of people asking for mantra

, however I dont know what happens to me not only do I

feel completely overwhelmed but also feel that

whatever I might try to ask Amma will get no for an

answer . I am sure You all know , that during these

public programs one does not have that much of time to

be with Amma those are seconds minutes then I feel

guilty to think of trival things etc... and try to

think of things that are essential and then worst of

all I think maybe Amma if thought it be important She

herself would say something to me like a guiding

instruction for a mantra or prayer . Long time ago

before I met Amma I asked another Guru for a mantra

that particular Guru just looked at me with sad eyes

and did not say anything , since that day that is it ,

whatever slokas , bajans i do I constantly have this

mantra issue on my mind . Last year when Amma was

enveloping me in her infinite hugg that is all i was

thinking about yet I could not ask , Amma just gave me

vibhuti with Om Namah Shivaya , probably for some

spiritual healing .

 

I love to read all your experiences and how everyone

seems to be able to verbally or letter wise

communicate . It is not that I never have

experiences there are dreams , some kind of visions

although I tend to see them more as my own creations (

since that is what i want to see Amma therefore She

comes in a dream , which She states herself is also

illusion ) .

 

 

Namaste , Joanna P

 

 

 

 

 

[Guest guest]

joanna p,

obviously i don't know for sure. but i have heard you are not supposed to

get mantra from two gurus. only one mantra in your life. so maybe it was a good

thing the other guru did not give you mantry and now you can get mantra from

Amma.

I have not yet recieved mantra because i know it is a big commitment and i

have this whole lifetime with amma and wanted to do the IAM course first. of

course that's not true for everybody. All your feelings of sadness, guilt,

unworthiness just lay them at Mother's feet and surrender to her.

 

 

D