To Superblu re Surrender

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Superblu wrote:

 

What does it really mean to surrender to Amma? what does that look like?

I'd like to hear everyones thoughts on this...

I have so many attachments, and my heart gets broken...

My heart feels a pool of pain and sorrow and I want to surrender all of

that to Amma. How do I do it?

 

 

 

Dear Superblue,

 

Ah, I think surrendering to Amma is different for each person. It is like

the old "peeling back the layers of the onion" metaphor that is used in

psychology. You peel back a layer, you deal with the issue it reveals, and you

think

you have done it, and the, lo and behold, suddenly another layer of the

onion unravels. I like to think that this, as I go through it over and over, is

getting to deeper levels of the onion (issues) and that healing is taking place

each time. But is it ever frustrating when one of those layers starts to

unravel.

 

Sometimes I throw myself at Amma's feet (metaphorically, since, when I do

this, I am not in Her physica Presence) and say, "Amma, I cannot do this

anymore. I surrender this (fill in the blank) to you. I give up whatever fruits

I

am getting from this to you. Please take it." I feel surrendered for a bit,

and then, another layer of the onion unravels. But I think this is the way it is

with many of us on the spiritual path. We surrender over and over until one

day the surrender is complete, and, as Amma says, there is no more ego.

 

I am so sorry to hear that your heart is hurting. I understand this, and it

is part of my journey too, and part of what I am constantly surrendering. I

suppose you could say that my surrender, until it is complete, is dipping my

toes in the Water, or even going in so far as up to my waist, but I think, for

now, I have to let that be okay with me. I believe Amma understands this is

an ongoing process, hence her river analogue. Don't be too hard on yourself,

dear Superblu...one toe at a time. In Amma's Love ~ Linda