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Om namaha shivaia

 

Linda, if it is a great desire of you, why don’t you ask directy Amma? She

makes rules, but She also destroys them, everything could happen. To me,

receiving the name was the same as a baptism (but this is my personal

opinion, how I felt it).

 

I seldom express my anger in a visibile way, I use to stay a part and cry a

little (a lot), till it has all gone. I do not like to attack somebody – it

could happen, but it is not my way of reacting to situations. In

particularly in Toulon it happened that some friends didn’t behave well

towards me and this was the same of something that happened in the past many

times (people taking profit from my availability to help others – anyway I

love to be useful). I thought I had overcome it, but I saw I had not. So I

was filled with sad and angry remembrances. Anyway I was not worried, I just

let it go and waited. I know that in such moments Amma is working and

purifying me, helping me to let go of the past. I simply could not believe

people from this group behaved like people from the past who never met Amma

(they were justified, but not Amma’s children!) and this made me angry. I

simply waited and cried alone, not to disturb much other people. And on the

Devi Bhava night it was again bliss..... My heart is still filled with Love

and Bliss and Happiness, even if life here is not so nice... And things have

developped for the best for everyone of us.

I don’t know what others think of this “stirring the pot”. With my friends,

we think it is She who is pulling things out, so that we become aware of

them: this is the first step towards the liberation from their bondage. We

don’t take it bad. We know that in Amma’s presence many strange things

happen..... and many people behave differently from what they do usually.

 

Linda, a friend of mine made Amma’s bed and now I have one of Her hair and a

white rose that was on Her bed.... how lucky I am..... I always complain but

have a lot of gifts, how silly I am!

 

Prasadini, I’m sorry moniters were mean towards you, but pls try to see

their point of view: working with no sleep and food (or only little of them)

and among tousands of people is not easy and brings a lot of stress (in your

words... overwhelming)... and there are many many people who don’t say the

truth just to stay with Mother even if they “aren’t entitled to it”,

moniters often try only to spare Amma extra work – and anyway they always

act for the better trying to follow Amma’s rules and advices (Amma is the

director of everything: She tells how many people can go to darshan, that

they have to sit down waiting, if seva people can come to darshan, even if

the previous instructions were absolutely not to go, and so on; this year

was also: door closed from 3 to 6 a.m. on Devi Bhava so that no one can

enter and everyone must go for darshan when the number is displayed and not

later, even seva people. Instructions chenge every ten minutes and this

brings more stress. – I don’t always understand, but I trust Amma She has a

reason – maybe She wants to see how we react). Try to see that it is not the

person but the situation, this will make you feel better and suffer less and

help them. In the past I also did not understand many behaviours, but

helping the staff and working long hours during the programms, I can now

understand much better what happens.

A Brahmacharini – one of the darshan tokens – was always very calm, even

when people shouted at her. A close friend of mine, who translated for the

Br.ni, told me she asked how could she be so quite (in fact my friend was

visibly very tired and stressed and worried because of the many angry and

unpolite people) and the answer was: “It is all karma, if they shout at

you”. I also apply this now, at home, and I feel better, I feel less sad

when people are angry or anxious towards me. This answer is helping me a

lot.

 

In Amma's Love

Prasida

[Guest guest]

Om Namah Shivayah,

 

I have been a line monitor several times and each time

it has been a huge blow to my ego! Especially during

public programs and Devi Bhava, lots of people ask for

special treatment, some clearly need it, some seem to

be impatient or not understanding why the wait is so

long. Every time someone tells me "This is ridiculous!

how long do we have to wait?" I am amazed, thinking of

every moment Amma is not physically in the room with

me and how the hours waiting for darshan are somehow

PART of the darshan for me.

 

I often see devotees and visitors getting angry with

eachother and being rude, and I've caught myself

hurling negative thoughts around too. I'm always

annoyed at the people who sit up front during DB and

then spread their blankets out and sleep all night.

But Amma does not seem to be offended by this, so why

should I be? They just don't know, and I want to just

be happy for them that they are there at all.

 

At my work I talk to a lot of people on the phone, and

often I am verbally abused by them. This used to upset

me to no end, since I really make an effort to be

kind, patient and gentle in my work. I asked Swamiji

about it this summer and his advice was;

 

"When people are giving you their negative words and

negative energy you must quickly remember that they

are Amma's children. Try to love them and don't take

in their negativity. Just let it go, if you fight

them, you will just feed that energy and you both will

be hurt. During the confrontation, turn inward to Amma

and know that She is there with you. She will help you

to find the right words."

 

He also stressed the importance of meditation, saying

that the loving peace we create within during

meditation becomes a blessing to everyone we interact

with during the day, but we should be sure to do

sadhana in both morning and evening if we are

interacting with a lot of worldly people during the

day.

 

It's so hard to live in the world while being on this

journey with Amma. But the nice thing about spiritual

practices, (when I am actually consistant with them!)

is that they work really well, and it gets better. It

becomes less about the pain of the past and more about

what is happening now, within. I always tell me yoga

students that just because you've been a (fill in the

blank) 'till now, doesn't mean that you have to be for

one more second. Every passing moment is a chance to

start it all over. And this has been the ongoing

challenge for me since I met Mother, to stop

identifying with my negative tendancies, believeing

that they are who I am.

 

Blah, blah, blah, I'm rambling. Just so excited to see

Her!!!

 

love to all,

 

Prajna

 

--- Carla Morselli <prasidacarla wrote:

 

> Om namaha shivaia

>

> Linda, if it is a great desire of you, why don’t you

> ask directy Amma? She

> makes rules, but She also destroys them, everything

> could happen. To me,

> receiving the name was the same as a baptism (but

> this is my personal

> opinion, how I felt it).

>

> I seldom express my anger in a visibile way, I use

> to stay a part and cry a

> little (a lot), till it has all gone. I do not like

> to attack somebody – it

> could happen, but it is not my way of reacting to

> situations. In

> particularly in Toulon it happened that some friends

> didn’t behave well

> towards me and this was the same of something that

> happened in the past many

> times (people taking profit from my availability to

> help others – anyway I

> love to be useful). I thought I had overcome it, but

> I saw I had not. So I

> was filled with sad and angry remembrances. Anyway I

> was not worried, I just

> let it go and waited. I know that in such moments

> Amma is working and

> purifying me, helping me to let go of the past. I

> simply could not believe

> people from this group behaved like people from the

> past who never met Amma

> (they were justified, but not Amma’s children!) and

> this made me angry. I

> simply waited and cried alone, not to disturb much

> other people. And on the

> Devi Bhava night it was again bliss..... My heart is

> still filled with Love

> and Bliss and Happiness, even if life here is not so

> nice... And things have

> developped for the best for everyone of us.

> I don’t know what others think of this “stirring the

> pot”. With my friends,

> we think it is She who is pulling things out, so

> that we become aware of

> them: this is the first step towards the liberation

> from their bondage. We

> don’t take it bad. We know that in Amma’s presence

> many strange things

> happen..... and many people behave differently from

> what they do usually.

>

> Linda, a friend of mine made Amma’s bed and now I

> have one of Her hair and a

> white rose that was on Her bed.... how lucky I

> am..... I always complain but

> have a lot of gifts, how silly I am!

>

> Prasadini, I’m sorry moniters were mean towards you,

> but pls try to see

> their point of view: working with no sleep and food

> (or only little of them)

> and among tousands of people is not easy and brings

> a lot of stress (in your

> words... overwhelming)... and there are many many

> people who don’t say the

> truth just to stay with Mother even if they “aren’t

> entitled to it”,

> moniters often try only to spare Amma extra work –

> and anyway they always

> act for the better trying to follow Amma’s rules and

> advices (Amma is the

> director of everything: She tells how many people

> can go to darshan, that

> they have to sit down waiting, if seva people can

> come to darshan, even if

> the previous instructions were absolutely not to go,

> and so on; this year

> was also: door closed from 3 to 6 a.m. on Devi Bhava

> so that no one can

> enter and everyone must go for darshan when the

> number is displayed and not

> later, even seva people. Instructions chenge every

> ten minutes and this

> brings more stress. – I don’t always understand, but

> I trust Amma She has a

> reason – maybe She wants to see how we react). Try

> to see that it is not the

> person but the situation, this will make you feel

> better and suffer less and

> help them. In the past I also did not understand

> many behaviours, but

> helping the staff and working long hours during the

> programms, I can now

> understand much better what happens.

> A Brahmacharini – one of the darshan tokens – was

> always very calm, even

> when people shouted at her. A close friend of mine,

> who translated for the

> Br.ni, told me she asked how could she be so quite

> (in fact my friend was

> visibly very tired and stressed and worried because

> of the many angry and

> unpolite people) and the answer was: “It is all

> karma, if they shout at

> you”. I also apply this now, at home, and I feel

> better, I feel less sad

> when people are angry or anxious towards me. This

> answer is helping me a

> lot.

>

> In Amma's Love

> Prasida

>

>

>

 

 

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