Guest guest Posted August 19, 2004 Report Share Posted August 19, 2004 om namah shivaya ammas children Amma is always saying that spirituality is about compassion and if we truly love Her, than we would love everyone as Her. in relaying the coconut account from this minds limited perceptions of reality, i wrote freely, not necessarily thinking before i wrote... i forgot to choose all my words care-full and creatively, forgot that the word has the power to create and/or destroy. i wrote about an experience with Amma in the form of Mata Amritanandamayi but forgot to write about/remember Amma in the form of others in the lila. i indulged in what i thought was self- expression about my roommate in India, never once thinking that it would affect the person as it was about something in the past... and as Amma's grace would have it, the beloved child of Mother who i judged publicly even as a past account, (as if i am in any position to do so) saw that email and was very hurt. How important is such a coconut experience if I am still seeing the separation between Mother and all Her Selves and if I am using my words in a negative fashion instead of for the upliftment of all. I know Mercury is in retrograde and I have debilitated Mercury already and I know Amma is just trying to show me the importance of always thinking/speaking positively esp. about others but i ask for forgiveness from Mother, from mentioned Child of Devi and from all of you for not being conscious in the choosing of my words. The original definition for the word SIN was an archery term meaning, to MISS THE MARK. I feel like my negativity to even one in the story made me miss the mark of AMMA. I have made similar mistakes often in the past and as i am trying to learn discernment while seeing the good in everyone, sometimes i feel like im in denial of my experience but amma does say not to speak ill of others ever and so do most spiritual teachers. Please beloved sisters and brothers, please pray for this destructive vasana of mine to be transmuted by our Mother. Pray that i, and all of us, see and remember only the good in all beings...Thank you, By the way, i would like to add, that though Mother seeemd to give me the experience of taking away the desires for coconuts, while in India, I am currently suffering an even deeper sickness in feeling nutritionally inadequate without fish, protein supplements, multi vitamins, etc. And though i am trying to save my money for renunciate fee i am spending money on nutritional supplements because I feel that the grace is not as accessible in my tamasic american dream as when in india... Im feeling really bad about it but then feeling better physically. Namaste, May I see only the Divine in YOU Ambujam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 19, 2004 Report Share Posted August 19, 2004 Ambujam! Surely Mother will take this vasana if you offer in the same spirit with which you finally offered the coconut- with humility and surrender! Aren't you glad that you've been given the opportunity to work on it now? Now is the best time!! See the humility this experience is blessing you with!! About the nourishment thing... bodies can be quite happy and healthy sans fish and other meats, but you should be sure to get proteins from other sources (nuts, seeds are great and quite portable for yogi/nis on the go). Multi vitamins and supplements are nice, but not necessary if we eat nourishing, whole foods in harmony with our doshas. Also, any food offered to Amma before we eat is prasad, and nourishes bodies AND minds AND hearts!! your sister, Prajna --- ammaslotus <ammaslotus wrote: > om namah shivaya ammas children > Amma is always saying that spirituality is about > compassion and if > we truly love Her, than we would love everyone as > Her. > in relaying the coconut account from this minds > limited perceptions > of reality, i wrote freely, not necessarily thinking > before i wrote... > i forgot to choose all my words care-full and > creatively, forgot that > the word has the power to create and/or destroy. > i wrote about an experience with Amma in the form of > Mata > Amritanandamayi but forgot to write about/remember > Amma in the form > of others in the lila. i indulged in what i thought > was self- > expression about my roommate in India, never once > thinking that it > would affect the person as it was about something in > the past... and > as Amma's grace would have it, the beloved child of > Mother who i > judged publicly even as a past account, (as if i am > in any position > to do so) saw that email and was very hurt. > How important is such a coconut experience if I am > still seeing the > separation between Mother and all Her Selves and if > I am using my > words in a negative fashion instead of for the > upliftment of all. I > know Mercury is in retrograde and I have debilitated > Mercury already > and I know Amma is just trying to show me the > importance of always > thinking/speaking positively esp. about others but i > ask for > forgiveness from Mother, from mentioned Child of > Devi and from all of > you for not being conscious in the choosing of my > words. > The original definition for the word SIN was an > archery term meaning, > to MISS THE MARK. I feel like my negativity to even > one in the story > made me miss the mark of AMMA. > I have made similar mistakes often in the past and > as i am trying to > learn discernment while seeing the good in everyone, > sometimes i feel > like im in denial of my experience but amma does say > not to speak ill > of others ever and so do most spiritual teachers. > Please beloved > sisters and brothers, please pray for this > destructive vasana of mine > to be transmuted by our Mother. Pray that i, and all > of us, see and > remember only the good in all beings...Thank you, > > By the way, i would like to add, that though Mother > seeemd to give me > the experience of taking away the desires for > coconuts, while in > India, I am currently suffering an even deeper > sickness in feeling > nutritionally inadequate without fish, protein > supplements, multi > vitamins, etc. And though i am trying to save my > money for renunciate > fee i am spending money on nutritional supplements > because I feel > that the grace is not as accessible in my tamasic > american dream as > when in india... > Im feeling really bad about it but then feeling > better physically. > Namaste, > May I see only the Divine in YOU > Ambujam > > > ===== sarvabhauma_yoga/ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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