If you want coconuts, they will come... -for Nirmala

[Guest guest]

My first time to Amritapuri, I was entranced by the beauty of the

lush green palm trees, flowing green river and bright blue sea. The

heat was welcome and I decided right away that I would get my dose of

nourishment from drinking coconut water. At least one a day.

I saw them selling these young green coconuts at the juice bar once

but when I went to get one, they had none. The Indian brahmacari

working the stall actually seemed surprised that i was looking for

one. Though it seems hard to believe now, I could swear he said

something like- This is an ashram, we're not here to satisfy all your

desires. Obviously Amma was coming through as i never heard of anyone

else getting this response when they were simply looking to drink a

coconut. I said to him, "But here are so many coconuts around, how

can I get one?" He shrugged his shoulders with disinterest in my

desire.

I found out that some children would leave the ashram every day and

get coconuts from the juice stalls outside. One morning, I went to do

this and met a sweet family with coconut trees in their yard who

invited me in. They were not devotees and were asking me too many

questions about Amma and how devotees live there- I realized I

shouldnt go wandering around. Soon after, in response to me asking

Her how Amma felt about us swimming in the ocean, Krishnamrita

Swamini told me sweetly that Amma really wants Her devotees to stay

put in the ashram and not go here and there looking for this or that.

She wants Her children to understand that She provides for all our

needs. I thought but why isnt She providing for my need for coconuts.

I stayed within the ashram and started praying more for them. It

became yet another test of mother to test my own faith in Her.

Oh yea, Mother, You say you provide everything, Well I dont just

want,I need coconuts... where are they? Why wont you help me?

i started visualizing drinking the coconuts, imagining getting all my

missing nutrients through the refreshing liquid, seeing the roundness

as Mother Nature herself with the liquid being the liquid of life. I

read somewhere that coconut water is so pure, that they even do blood

transfusions with it in some thrid world countires if they dont have

enough blood. i know I need to build my blood, so I knew I needed

coconuts but I really wanted to follow Amma's wish that I stay inside

the ashram boundaries.

Sometimes, on my way into the temple during big public darshans, I

would see a huge pile of coconuts inside the temple gates: a man

cutting the top of each one off and handing it to the thirsty with a

straw. I would think I would get one after I saw Amma. Of course her

magnetism outlasted the coconut supply because every time, by the

time I got back outside, they were all gone.

I was getting so upset with Her. Burning with desire for a simple

pleasure which I felt was a serious health necessity.

One darshan a few of weeks into my suffering, She was talking loudly

as She often does towards the end so we can all hear. She was talking

about Krishna and Rama, I think, because I kept hearing their names.

I wished I could understand Her.

Then really loudly and clearly in the midst of Her deep conversation

in Malayalam, I, from across the temple, heard Her say in plain

English, "If you want coconuts, they will come." I double checked my

self, Did She really say that???

 

"IF YOU WANT COCONUTS... THEY WILL COME."

 

I practically bolted out of the temple to check the juicestall

immediately to see if I had indeed heard right. i dont even think

that i stayed for darshan-end as i used to always do. I felt like

telling the juicestall brahmacari that Amma had blessed my wish and

HA! I have a right to want coconuts and She will provide for me

because I am Amma's daughter.

 

That afternoon, when I got back to my room which I had been in alone,

there were some belongings on the mat across from mine and quite a

few coconuts stashed under the one sink. Yes, i thought, I cam going

to get to drink one.

When my new roommate came, i greeted her and she ignored me

completely. She was loud and irritating in her movements but she

wouldnt respond to me. She really p-ed me off. Later, I found out she

was in silence for a week and had stability problems anyway.

I was sitting at the snack shop table eating my dinner, when I met

one of the ashram residents.

I told her how much i had been wanting coconuts and I could swear

that Amma said, "If you want coconuts, they will come."

This blessed resident said, "Oh you dont know where to get coconuts?

Just go to the tailor shop and you can buy Amma prasad coconuts

there."

I couldnt believe this blessing. AMMA PRASAD COCONUTS.

I told a few select people about my rare find and everyday I would go

and get my daily nourishment, all the while envisioning I was

drinking the life/immortality giving nectar of Amrita from Amma's

pure bosom.

Soon, we were on South Indian tour. Our first tea/satsang stop with

Mother was at a very sacred temple site by a river. Hundreds of us

descended from the bus and meandered over to the site wondering how

long until Amma's car would arrive. A man was selling coconuts at the

entrance way. Many children started purchasing them and drinking them

right there. I thought, What are they doing? Amma is going to be here

any moment and everyine is standing around sipping coconuts like were

at the mall or something. it seemed so disrespectful to me.. not at

all a proper welcome of our beloved guru in this most intimate sacred

setting. I thought there is only one way to remedy the situation, "I

will get a coconut for Mother, at least."

As soon as I ordered it, Mother arrived on the scene. instead of

touching Her gliding-by hand as we usually all do, many people were

holding their coconuts. I got the coconut for Her just in time and

extended it out to Her. She looked at me thankfully and refused.

I approached Swamini who had stayed out of the crowd, if She could

serve it to Mother. She said, No She wont drink it now, She just

likes to have a bit of coffee in the afternoons. OK, I was stuck with

this coconut. I saw other children still sipping their coconuts even

though Mother was sitting with us in DEEP TRUTH. Amma was singing

Vraja Me Aisa and Radha and Krishna were present in Her. The river

had trasformed into the Yamuna. I noticed Mother was sitting with a

huge coconut tree behind here. I saw Her as Mother Creator of the

Coconut tree.So beautiful, she was one with it...

I started praying fervently in my heart, Please Mother, Forgive this

incessant desire ive had for coconuts. I see that you are the source

of the coconuts and If i reciev you i get all the nourishment I need.

Please take away this desire and please accept this coconut offering

as a token of all my desire for coconuts. I offer my desire to YOU.

Please accept it, i beg you. Ive been a fool. You are all I need and

want. You are the Way, the truth and the Life.

After praying intensely for quite some time, I boldly handed the

coconut offering to the person in fron of me and asked the mot pass

it up to Amma. As it snaked its way through the crowd of devotees, I

felt at least I had offered it- it matters not whether She actually

accepts it or not. Maybe it will just get to rest near her.

Amma accepted the coconut with Her hands, bowed to it and drank a

bit. Thank you AMMAMAMA MAA MAAA. Thank you for taking what is

rightfully yours and only yours. I know you give me what i need. As

She was drinking, it spilled on her sari. As she was wiping it off, I

got some sick satisfaction from thinking that She was also taking my

sloppy vasana.

She drank quite a lot. Probably becaus I had alot of poisonous desire

for Her to transmute but of course, at the time i thought she was

perhaps thirsty for it.

I got so much satisfaction out of seeing the full circle of creation

being reabsorbed into Creator, with this self out of the way from

blocking the flow.

After that, to this day, i am truly free from my burning desire for

coconuts. I still like them, especially coconutmilk curries but the

raging need was reabsorbed back into Her that day and has not since

returned.

Amma will give us all our desires but is this what we really want or

do we really want HER?

 

Didnt someone post this sanskrit verse recently?

 

Yad icchati tad karoti

yad karoti tad bhavati

 

THAT FOR WHICH THE WISH RESTS, THAT IS THE THING FOR WHICH DEEDS ARE

DONE.

THAT FOR WHICH DEEDS ARE DONE, THAT IS WHAT HE BECOMES.

 

May all of our minds stay focused on her as our SOURCE, PRESENT & GOAL

jai ma

ambujam

[Guest guest]

I love this coconut story and I have never drunk coconut milk to

share your previous passion for it. Everybody for a long time has

his/her coconut however, that thing without which our mind cannot be

peaceful. For me it used to be my morning coffee and not just any

coffee. It had to be exactly this sort with only that kind of

creamer. California-style coconut madness.

 

Aikya

 

Ammachi, "ammaslotus" <ammaslotus> wrote:

> My first time to Amritapuri, I was entranced by the beauty of the

> lush green palm trees, flowing green river and bright blue sea.

The

> heat was welcome and I decided right away that I would get my dose

of

> nourishment from drinking coconut water. At least one a day.

> I saw them selling these young green coconuts at the juice bar

once

> but when I went to get one, they had none. The Indian brahmacari

> working the stall actually seemed surprised that i was looking for

> one. Though it seems hard to believe now, I could swear he said

> something like- This is an ashram, we're not here to satisfy all

your

> desires. Obviously Amma was coming through as i never heard of

anyone

> else getting this response when they were simply looking to drink

a

> coconut. I said to him, "But here are so many coconuts around, how

> can I get one?" He shrugged his shoulders with disinterest in my

> desire.

> I found out that some children would leave the ashram every day

and

> get coconuts from the juice stalls outside. One morning, I went to

do

> this and met a sweet family with coconut trees in their yard who

> invited me in. They were not devotees and were asking me too many

> questions about Amma and how devotees live there- I realized I

> shouldnt go wandering around. Soon after, in response to me asking

> Her how Amma felt about us swimming in the ocean, Krishnamrita

> Swamini told me sweetly that Amma really wants Her devotees to

stay

> put in the ashram and not go here and there looking for this or

that.

> She wants Her children to understand that She provides for all our

> needs. I thought but why isnt She providing for my need for

coconuts.

> I stayed within the ashram and started praying more for them. It

> became yet another test of mother to test my own faith in Her.

> Oh yea, Mother, You say you provide everything, Well I dont just

> want,I need coconuts... where are they? Why wont you help me?

> i started visualizing drinking the coconuts, imagining getting all

my

> missing nutrients through the refreshing liquid, seeing the

roundness

> as Mother Nature herself with the liquid being the liquid of life.

I

> read somewhere that coconut water is so pure, that they even do

blood

> transfusions with it in some thrid world countires if they dont

have

> enough blood. i know I need to build my blood, so I knew I needed

> coconuts but I really wanted to follow Amma's wish that I stay

inside

> the ashram boundaries.

> Sometimes, on my way into the temple during big public darshans, I

> would see a huge pile of coconuts inside the temple gates: a man

> cutting the top of each one off and handing it to the thirsty with

a

> straw. I would think I would get one after I saw Amma. Of course

her

> magnetism outlasted the coconut supply because every time, by the

> time I got back outside, they were all gone.

> I was getting so upset with Her. Burning with desire for a simple

> pleasure which I felt was a serious health necessity.

> One darshan a few of weeks into my suffering, She was talking

loudly

> as She often does towards the end so we can all hear. She was

talking

> about Krishna and Rama, I think, because I kept hearing their

names.

> I wished I could understand Her.

> Then really loudly and clearly in the midst of Her deep

conversation

> in Malayalam, I, from across the temple, heard Her say in plain

> English, "If you want coconuts, they will come." I double checked

my

> self, Did She really say that???

>

> "IF YOU WANT COCONUTS... THEY WILL COME."

>

> I practically bolted out of the temple to check the juicestall

> immediately to see if I had indeed heard right. i dont even think

> that i stayed for darshan-end as i used to always do. I felt like

> telling the juicestall brahmacari that Amma had blessed my wish

and

> HA! I have a right to want coconuts and She will provide for me

> because I am Amma's daughter.

>

> That afternoon, when I got back to my room which I had been in

alone,

> there were some belongings on the mat across from mine and quite a

> few coconuts stashed under the one sink. Yes, i thought, I cam

going

> to get to drink one.

> When my new roommate came, i greeted her and she ignored me

> completely. She was loud and irritating in her movements but she

> wouldnt respond to me. She really p-ed me off. Later, I found out

she

> was in silence for a week and had stability problems anyway.

> I was sitting at the snack shop table eating my dinner, when I met

> one of the ashram residents.

> I told her how much i had been wanting coconuts and I could swear

> that Amma said, "If you want coconuts, they will come."

> This blessed resident said, "Oh you dont know where to get

coconuts?

> Just go to the tailor shop and you can buy Amma prasad coconuts

> there."

> I couldnt believe this blessing. AMMA PRASAD COCONUTS.

> I told a few select people about my rare find and everyday I would

go

> and get my daily nourishment, all the while envisioning I was

> drinking the life/immortality giving nectar of Amrita from Amma's

> pure bosom.

> Soon, we were on South Indian tour. Our first tea/satsang stop

with

> Mother was at a very sacred temple site by a river. Hundreds of us

> descended from the bus and meandered over to the site wondering

how

> long until Amma's car would arrive. A man was selling coconuts at

the

> entrance way. Many children started purchasing them and drinking

them

> right there. I thought, What are they doing? Amma is going to be

here

> any moment and everyine is standing around sipping coconuts like

were

> at the mall or something. it seemed so disrespectful to me.. not

at

> all a proper welcome of our beloved guru in this most intimate

sacred

> setting. I thought there is only one way to remedy the

situation, "I

> will get a coconut for Mother, at least."

> As soon as I ordered it, Mother arrived on the scene. instead of

> touching Her gliding-by hand as we usually all do, many people

were

> holding their coconuts. I got the coconut for Her just in time and

> extended it out to Her. She looked at me thankfully and refused.

> I approached Swamini who had stayed out of the crowd, if She could

> serve it to Mother. She said, No She wont drink it now, She just

> likes to have a bit of coffee in the afternoons. OK, I was stuck

with

> this coconut. I saw other children still sipping their coconuts

even

> though Mother was sitting with us in DEEP TRUTH. Amma was singing

> Vraja Me Aisa and Radha and Krishna were present in Her. The river

> had trasformed into the Yamuna. I noticed Mother was sitting with

a

> huge coconut tree behind here. I saw Her as Mother Creator of the

> Coconut tree.So beautiful, she was one with it...

> I started praying fervently in my heart, Please Mother, Forgive

this

> incessant desire ive had for coconuts. I see that you are the

source

> of the coconuts and If i reciev you i get all the nourishment I

need.

> Please take away this desire and please accept this coconut

offering

> as a token of all my desire for coconuts. I offer my desire to

YOU.

> Please accept it, i beg you. Ive been a fool. You are all I need

and

> want. You are the Way, the truth and the Life.

> After praying intensely for quite some time, I boldly handed the

> coconut offering to the person in fron of me and asked the mot

pass

> it up to Amma. As it snaked its way through the crowd of devotees,

I

> felt at least I had offered it- it matters not whether She

actually

> accepts it or not. Maybe it will just get to rest near her.

> Amma accepted the coconut with Her hands, bowed to it and drank a

> bit. Thank you AMMAMAMA MAA MAAA. Thank you for taking what is

> rightfully yours and only yours. I know you give me what i need.

As

> She was drinking, it spilled on her sari. As she was wiping it

off, I

> got some sick satisfaction from thinking that She was also taking

my

> sloppy vasana.

> She drank quite a lot. Probably becaus I had alot of poisonous

desire

> for Her to transmute but of course, at the time i thought she was

> perhaps thirsty for it.

> I got so much satisfaction out of seeing the full circle of

creation

> being reabsorbed into Creator, with this self out of the way from

> blocking the flow.

> After that, to this day, i am truly free from my burning desire

for

> coconuts. I still like them, especially coconutmilk curries but

the

> raging need was reabsorbed back into Her that day and has not

since

> returned.

> Amma will give us all our desires but is this what we really want

or

> do we really want HER?

>

> Didnt someone post this sanskrit verse recently?

>

> Yad icchati tad karoti

> yad karoti tad bhavati

>

> THAT FOR WHICH THE WISH RESTS, THAT IS THE THING FOR WHICH DEEDS

ARE

> DONE.

> THAT FOR WHICH DEEDS ARE DONE, THAT IS WHAT HE BECOMES.

>

> May all of our minds stay focused on her as our SOURCE, PRESENT &

GOAL

> jai ma

> ambujam