Guest guest Posted August 11, 2004 Report Share Posted August 11, 2004 Dearest Sister, Still a struggle in what seems like every aspect of my life at this moment, but I'm sure its not as bad as it sounds...It can always get worst! My ego seems to be a constant struggle against me, and with the ego my anger is still rising like a volcano at times. It is so selfish, it throws temper tantrums and kicks its feet until it gets its way. I am better than last week but it keeps bringing up conflicts to 'deal' with, I ignore it. Something that HAS been bothering me and I won't deal with because I'm afraid it might cause a huge fight is my ex husband, he sent only 300.00 last month (suppose to get 650.00) and I still haven't received any payment this month, I'm afraid to bring it up, I don't feel like he is trying, but I don't know his daily routine etc. I ask him to get a room mate or find a second job, or a "better" job, but he always comes back with excuses. I ask myself "What would Mother do?" I honestly don't know, the only thing that comes up is to have faith. I should email Swami and see if he could ask her, but I hate to be a bother when I should JUST HAVE FAITH! It brings me to tears and agony just typing this out. And I did ask Mother when I saw her about my financial situation and she said "We will have to work on this" I have in the past made threats that I would have to move to Texas with my parents or garnish his wages but I won't take the girls away from their father and I can't see Amma garnishing his wages. I am just at a loss here and she seems to have giving me an answer once already I don't see that she would answer me again. Another lesson I guess, I should just let it go. I did have an answered prayer!!! If you all remember in my "Meeting Amma Experience"email I had lost my pictures of Amma that she had blessed. I prayed and prayed for her to send them to me, I kept expecting them to come in the mail at anytime, then I just gave up and didn't think about them anymore.. My friend who drove me up JUST found them in her car two nights ago, she said she never noticed them in there before!! Amma has sent me back my pictures!!! We are having our FIRST sat-sung at the end of this month the 29th, we are having a picnic to get things started. She will give them to me then. I'm anxious to meet new Amma devotee's! In any case I wouldn't worry about me much, Mother obviously has me working hard on my path and very busy! I won't give up trying. I'm still waiting for my promised liberation in this life time! LOL (For doing the holy water outside this was promised to me from the guy passing out seva) So I guess Mother had to accelerate my path! (joke) Still have a lot of pondering etc. going on but I'll still save that for another day. Your friend is in my prayers, and the rest of you are as well, I always pray for you all. All my love. At Amma's Lotus Feet, Robin Namaste, A close friend is really struggling with the aftermath of botched/repeated knee surgeries (3); I'd really appreciate any prayers you might send Amma on her behalf; her name is Treca. Robin, how are you doing this week? With love as always, Snehalata Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Ammachi/ Ammachi Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 2004 Report Share Posted August 11, 2004 Dear Robin, None of us can say for sure what Amma would do in this situation. As for my own feeling about this...I understand your reluctance to take the children away from their father. However, I think it's a misunderstanding to assume that it's somehow unspiritual to take some kind of legal action here. I'm assuming that this money from your ex-husband is child support? If so...I feel like it would be a mistake to just let it go. If there is some way to collect this money from your ex-husband without resorting to garnishing his wages, I hope you are able to discern it. But if there is not...consider that, as a mother, your dharma is to care for your children? Perhaps the issue here is one of attitude, rather than one of action. You can take the necessary steps to protect your children's welfare without coming from a place of anger or bitter resentment (though I know it is hard!). Just a thought for your consideration... Namah Shivaya, Iswari Ammachi, Robin Wilson <lilymoonjewel> wrote: > Dearest Sister, > > Still a struggle in what seems like every aspect of my life at this moment, but I'm sure its not as bad as it sounds...It can always get worst! My ego seems to be a constant struggle against me, and with the ego my anger is still rising like a volcano at times. It is so selfish, it throws temper tantrums and kicks its feet until it gets its way. I am better than last week but it keeps bringing up conflicts to 'deal' with, I ignore it. Something that HAS been bothering me and I won't deal with because I'm afraid it might cause a huge fight is my ex husband, he sent only 300.00 last month (suppose to get 650.00) and I still haven't received any payment this month, I'm afraid to bring it up, I don't feel like he is trying, but I don't know his daily routine etc. I ask him to get a room mate or find a second job, or a "better" job, but he always comes back with excuses. I ask myself "What would Mother do?" I honestly don't know, the only thing that comes up is to have faith. I should > email Swami and see if he could ask her, but I hate to be a bother when I should JUST HAVE FAITH! It brings me to tears and agony just typing this out. And I did ask Mother when I saw her about my financial situation and she said "We will have to work on this" I have in the past made threats that I would have to move to Texas with my parents or garnish his wages but I won't take the girls away from their father and I can't see Amma garnishing his wages. I am just at a loss here and she seems to have giving me an answer once already I don't see that she would answer me again. Another lesson I guess, I should just let it go. > > I did have an answered prayer!!! If you all remember in my "Meeting Amma Experience"email I had lost my pictures of Amma that she had blessed. I prayed and prayed for her to send them to me, I kept expecting them to come in the mail at anytime, then I just gave up and didn't think about them anymore.. My friend who drove me up JUST found them in her car two nights ago, she said she never noticed them in there before!! Amma has sent me back my pictures!!! We are having our FIRST sat-sung at the end of this month the 29th, we are having a picnic to get things started. She will give them to me then. I'm anxious to meet new Amma devotee's! > > In any case I wouldn't worry about me much, Mother obviously has me working hard on my path and very busy! I won't give up trying. I'm still waiting for my promised liberation in this life time! LOL (For doing the holy water outside this was promised to me from the guy passing out seva) So I guess Mother had to accelerate my path! (joke) > > Still have a lot of pondering etc. going on but I'll still save that for another day. Your friend is in my prayers, and the rest of you are as well, I always pray for you all. All my love. > > At Amma's Lotus Feet, > Robin > > Namaste, > > > > > A close friend is really struggling with the aftermath of botched/repeated knee surgeries (3); I'd really appreciate any prayers you might send Amma on her behalf; her name is Treca. > > Robin, how are you doing this week? > > With love as always, > Snehalata > > > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > > Sponsor > > > > Links > > > > Ammachi/ > > > Ammachi > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 11, 2004 Report Share Posted August 11, 2004 Dearest Robin, A very advanced sadhak once told me that "being spiritual" and "having faith" aren't the same things as allowing people to take advantage of you or hurt you. Stick up for yourself and your girls. It is your ex's duty to take care of the girls financially, so it is HIS karma that is influenced, not yours. With love, Niseema (Amma's child whose mother didn't receive payments on time either, but taught her daughters more from sticking up for herself than anything else in their lives.) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 12, 2004 Report Share Posted August 12, 2004 Dear Sister Robin, I am really sorry to know your problems. I will also pray for you. But other side I did not understand why you have this much problem with money? Are you not working right now ? I am new to this group and I don't know what happening to you. If you can share to everybody please write to us. Take care Ajith - Robin Wilson Ammachi Thursday, August 12, 2004 2:08 AM Robin, how are you doing this week? Dearest Sister, Still a struggle in what seems like every aspect of my life at this moment, but I'm sure its not as bad as it sounds...It can always get worst! My ego seems to be a constant struggle against me, and with the ego my anger is still rising like a volcano at times. It is so selfish, it throws temper tantrums and kicks its feet until it gets its way. I am better than last week but it keeps bringing up conflicts to 'deal' with, I ignore it. Something that HAS been bothering me and I won't deal with because I'm afraid it might cause a huge fight is my ex husband, he sent only 300.00 last month (suppose to get 650.00) and I still haven't received any payment this month, I'm afraid to bring it up, I don't feel like he is trying, but I don't know his daily routine etc. I ask him to get a room mate or find a second job, or a "better" job, but he always comes back with excuses. I ask myself "What would Mother do?" I honestly don't know, the only thing that comes up is to have faith. I should email Swami and see if he could ask her, but I hate to be a bother when I should JUST HAVE FAITH! It brings me to tears and agony just typing this out. And I did ask Mother when I saw her about my financial situation and she said "We will have to work on this" I have in the past made threats that I would have to move to Texas with my parents or garnish his wages but I won't take the girls away from their father and I can't see Amma garnishing his wages. I am just at a loss here and she seems to have giving me an answer once already I don't see that she would answer me again. Another lesson I guess, I should just let it go. I did have an answered prayer!!! If you all remember in my "Meeting Amma Experience"email I had lost my pictures of Amma that she had blessed. I prayed and prayed for her to send them to me, I kept expecting them to come in the mail at anytime, then I just gave up and didn't think about them anymore.. My friend who drove me up JUST found them in her car two nights ago, she said she never noticed them in there before!! Amma has sent me back my pictures!!! We are having our FIRST sat-sung at the end of this month the 29th, we are having a picnic to get things started. She will give them to me then. I'm anxious to meet new Amma devotee's! In any case I wouldn't worry about me much, Mother obviously has me working hard on my path and very busy! I won't give up trying. I'm still waiting for my promised liberation in this life time! LOL (For doing the holy water outside this was promised to me from the guy passing out seva) So I guess Mother had to accelerate my path! (joke) Still have a lot of pondering etc. going on but I'll still save that for another day. Your friend is in my prayers, and the rest of you are as well, I always pray for you all. All my love. At Amma's Lotus Feet, Robin Namaste, A close friend is really struggling with the aftermath of botched/repeated knee surgeries (3); I'd really appreciate any prayers you might send Amma on her behalf; her name is Treca. Robin, how are you doing this week? With love as always, Snehalata Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Sponsor Links Ammachi/ Ammachi Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Ammachi/ b.. Ammachi c.. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 12, 2004 Report Share Posted August 12, 2004 beloved ajith , She is a single parent , to care care of her kids she is financially dependent on ex-hubby. she is still working . She had written everything in detail in her earlier posts. It is available on the archives. dear robin, Do not share all the problems of yours with the kids , we should not poison the kids at this early stage. supress it when it comes to sharing the stories with kids , express it fully with amma and the group .. ok ?. keep on writing our prayers are there with you . heyy.. we want to see your little kids photos.. Pls put that on net and share the link with us . give them lots of luv and play with them , ok ?. they are little angels .. with lots of luv At amma's children's service Your little brother " We care about you, We care about the people around us" << I am really sorry to know your problems. I will also pray for you. But other side I did not understand why you have this much problem with money? Are you not working right now ? I am new to this group and I don't know what happening to you. If you can share to everybody please write to us. >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 12, 2004 Report Share Posted August 12, 2004 dear robin another reason for the anger is that you have not forgiven your ex. completely ... forgive him.. he is also struggling .. so pray from him too .. may be the divine want you to take more reponsibility .. to make you more tolerent .. more patient .. more matured .. sometimes you may feel , why all are behaving bad to you .. it is because of the stress inside them .. they too have a lot of problems .. hence forgive them and pray for them too.. ok .. everything will be alright .. ok.. with lots of prayers At amma's children's service Your little brother " The more responsibilty you take the more you grow, the more you are close to the divine " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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