Topic of boredom: counter-thoughts.

[Guest guest]

Namah Shivaya all.

 

Thanks for your many comments, in the group and off list (I will

respond to the off-list separately)... .I had an incedibly tight

weekend, so I could respond earlier. ( so no time to get bored

then! ).

 

Ranjeesh:

You have taken a very different perspective than others; sounds like

you are inviting me into a psychiatric session, and a public one at

that! I am afraid I do not have the internal sense of security to go

through such a task, so I will respectfully decline. But I must

mention that I laugh at every post you write; I hope others are able

to see your wit as good-natured banter, and not take offense.... I

am able to relate to what you are writing.

 

Yogaman:

Yes, deep breathing is cool... I have actually not blessed or

initiated into it by any saint (in terms of learning from a

physically distinct perceivable entity), these are just random

researches of mine in the vast ocean of spirituality. I don't know

if it is ok or what, but it does help me now.... in these matters I

go by Sw Vivekanada's words: "Accept anything that inspires; if it

does not inspire you, disregard it like poison!"

 

Brianna / Prajna:

Great advice... nishkama karma. I truly believe in my own life, that

if I can do something worthwhile and stick with it for just enough

time, that is all I will never need to do anything else again. But

my success rate in sticking to any (self-initiated, self-managed)

project has been HORRENDOUS! well. wish me luck!

 

Tom Childers:

I understand what you say and agree to the most part, except the

mastery. To me, mastery means complete power over all the elements

(if it sounds like megalomania to you, let me say it is not!), which

means understanding the internals of how it originates, and what

pressure points to press to subdue it, or intensify it etc. and that

is important to me too.

 

Radha / Christiane (nice name!):

Good point about Sakshi bhava (witnessing the emotion). It works for

sometime, but after that I get bored off it too! The thought in me

is "what's the point I am trying to make with this practice?"

 

AMBUJAM:

Fantastic. Love was dripping thru every word you wrote. It has done

much good to me. I liked the way you mentioned about "grabbing the

opportunity"; that is a lesson I am currently living through (after

years of shyness and awe around Her). I have learned that lesson as

late as this summer, and I am cornering the Lady and squeezing out

from Her whatever I can, with each darshan!

 

 

Let me hasten to say that I have not "given up". I love Amma very

dearly. My problem is not one of doubt, it's of low energy.... As

Erica put it recently "... have a problem making and keeping good

habits".

 

PLUS, even when it sustains for weeks and months on end, one

relapse, and IT'S ALL GONE! it's a miserable, lonely time then.

 

And frankly, I doubt if all I heard will make me beneficially

change my disposition so suddenly and irreversibly! I would be

surprised if it did, but I am expecting not, and yet keeping an open

mind about it! Golly! what a sucker I am!

 

Jai Ma!