No peace

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Namaste,

 

I have no peace in my heart today. I feel like I have let Mother down. I have

AGAIN failed miserably. I feel like I have let you all down. I am SO angry at

Mother right now. I don't like it. Not hatred or anything but just anger. I am

having HUGE problems at work, I almost walked out today but this is IMPOSSIBLE

for me to do. I can't afford NOT TO WORK. But I can't go on like this. My friend

called me on the way home and told me things I am not suppose to know like, my

immediate manager (whom I get along with) went and told our "higher up manager"

that we were NOT going to have a meeting tomorrow because it didn't involve

everyone in the department. She told my friend that she told our manger (this is

after I left) that if I walk out tomorrow then she is walking out too. I can't

have this on my conscious. Granted I can't quit but I get pretty upset at THIS

situation and emotions get wound up and I blurt out I quit and thats it. If I

really do quit I can't have people quiting

because of me!!! Thats crazy I won't have it, but at the same time I can't have

my actions held against me in the heat of the moment. In any case I can't quit

and I am so angry at Amma, SCREAMING in my heart, do you see how your children

are treating me?!?! Do you not care?!?! Must I suffer through this?!?!?!?! I

throw my hands up I feel defeated and at complete loss. Someone PLEASE help me.

I feel that I can't even pray I'm just so angry. If I quit with no job lined up

I can't pay rent. I feel lost. Stuck. I feel like this is getting shoved down my

throat and I am made to swallow it whether I like it or not. Help.

 

At Amma's Feet

Robin

 

 

 

 

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[Guest guest]

Robin,

 

I hear that you are suffering, deeply frustrated and feel trapped. I

have no words of wisdom for your situation. Amma's words and books

contain all the wisdom I will ever need and there's nothing I can add.

All I can offer is the following prayer "Dearest Amma, if in harmony

with Your Divine will, please now let Robin fully experience Your

everpresent love and grace."

 

The many arms of our sangha hold you.

 

Jai Amma,

 

Tom

 

 

Robin Wilson wrote:

 

>Namaste,

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> I have no peace in my heart today. I feel like I have let Mother down. I have

AGAIN failed miserably. I feel like I have let you all down. I am SO angry at

Mother right now. I don't like it. Not hatred or anything but just anger. I am

having HUGE problems at work, I almost walked out today but this is IMPOSSIBLE

for me to do. I can't afford NOT TO WORK. But I can't go on like this. My friend

called me on the way home and told me things I am not suppose to know like, my

immediate manager (whom I get along with) went and told our "higher up manager"

that we were NOT going to have a meeting tomorrow because it didn't involve

everyone in the department. She told my friend that she told our manger (this is

after I left) that if I walk out tomorrow then she is walking out too. I can't

have this on my conscious. Granted I can't quit but I get pretty upset at THIS

situation and emotions get wound up and I blurt out I quit and thats it. If I

really do quit I can't have people quiti!

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> because of me!!! Thats crazy I won't have it, but at the same time I can't

have my actions held against me in the heat of the moment. In any case I can't

quit and I am so angry at Amma, SCREAMING in my heart, do you see how your

children are treating me?!?! Do you not care?!?! Must I suffer through

this?!?!?!?! I throw my hands up I feel defeated and at complete loss. Someone

PLEASE help me. I feel that I can't even pray I'm just so angry. If I quit with

no job lined up I can't pay rent. I feel lost. Stuck. I feel like this is

getting shoved down my throat and I am made to swallow it whether I like it or

not. Help.

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