First darshan in NY and some questions about Boston (please help)...

July 19, 2004

Hello everyone,

I recieved my first darshan from Mother yesterday afternoon in NYC.

It was the most transformative experience of my life. To see her in

person was an overwhelmingly joyous experience. I could not stop

crying with joy from the time she entered the hall until the time I

had to leave, although the tears when I had to leave came from not

wanting to leave.

When I made my way close to her in the darshan line, I began sobbing

uncontrollably. I could literally feel love permeating every cell in

my body. I was overflowing. Then, when I was in her arms, time stood

still. I couldn't say if it was 30 seconds or 3 days that I was in

her arms. I felt as if I had come home. As if my entire life were

leading up to that one small moment. She chanted something in my ear

that sounded like "momomomomo" and the vibration of her voice was so

intense that I felt it in my chest. Could this have been "Ma" that

she was chanting? Perhaps with her accent it sounded different to me.

When I rose to my feet, my legs were weak and I was afraid that they

were going to give out. As I walked across the hall, my head was

spinning and I was very afraid I was going to faint, so I held on

tightly to my friends arm. It was without a doubt that most beautiful

and life-changing experience I have ever had in this lifetime.

Also, my friend came with me as a form of support, because he knew

the day was so important to me. He had never heard of nor knew who

Mother is. As soon as he laid eyes on her, he began to weep and he

kept saying "What is going on? Why am I crying? I feel so happy". He

didn't know what to make of it and then, when he recieved darshan he

began sobbing and as he walked away he said he felt faint as well. My

best friend was touched by Amma yesterday, even though he thought he

was going to simply support me. That was another great blessing for

me, to see how happy and at peace my freind was after being touched

by Mother.

So that is the brief story of my first darshan. I am looking forward

to hearing the stories of others who have had their first darshan

this year as well!

I also would like to know if any one can help me with

information/advice about the Boston (Danvers, MA) program on

Wednesday? I have had a little suprise from Mother in that I begged

that I might get a chance to see her one more time before she leaves

America. I just found out that I get out of work at 5:30 on Wednesday

and that I don't have to be in until noon the next day. A friend has

offered to drive us out there right after I get out of work, because

she wants to meet Amma and experience this very special time as well.

I live in Rhode Island, and according to MapQuest, Danvers is One

hour and 14 minutes away. With traffic at that time, I am assuming we

won't reach the hall until about close to 7:30 which is when the

program starts.

What I am wondering is if the fact that we may not get there until

7:30 may make the night turn out to be dissapointing. Will we still

be able to get a token that late? I ask because I know in NY they

gave out tokens one hour before. Also, there will be bhajans and a

meditation I believe. Does this start at 7:30? If so, what time does

darshan start? I also wonder if anyone knows how full the attendance

usually is at the Danvers program versus the NY program? I have heard

that all of the programs are different as far as the amount of

people...with some places numbering only in the hundreds and others

in the thousands (Like NY for example).

I ask all of this because I am nervous about making it there and

driving the 1 1/2 hours back with enough time to get some sleep and

get to a big work meeting the next day. I want to see Mother, but I

am afraid of not leaving the hall until 4am and then driving back and

being a wreck at work the next day (which I might do anyway, because

I really want to go . If anyone has any advice, it would be greatly

appreciated! Thank you.

In Amma,

Michelle

July 19, 2004

Hi Michelle,

Briefly, Amma may have been saying "mole" (mo'-lay) in your ear, which is

Malayalam for daughter. Or it could have been "Ma." I firmly believe that Amma

can make you

hear anything she wants. When my older daughter and I had darshan together,

Amma's

head was between us, and I clearly heard her saying "daughter, daughter,

daughter" in English. When the darshan was over, my daughter demanded to know

why Amma was speaking in a foreign language, saying "mole, mole, mole." We were

both absolutely sure about what we had heard! (And my daughter knew no

Malayalam at all.)

Re: Boston. Trust your heart as to whether you should go or not. If the heart

is saying

yes, then all obstacles will be removed. My own (prejudiced) opinion is that

there are

lots of work meetings, but Amma is only here a short time. I'm sure you can

still get

tokens up to 8:30 or 9:00, especially at 7:30 there should be no problem.

Crowds are

not nearly as large as NYC.

Hope to see you there,

Jyotsna

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