numerous blessings

[Guest guest]

Om Amriteswaryai Namaha!!

 

My dear family, I'm sorry I've been out of touch, and

I won't bore you with the details- I just want to

share some of my recent experiences with our Amma.

 

The LA program and retreat were magical and healing

for me. There were so many extraordinary moments that

seemed to be just for me, although I'm sure we all

feel that way. It really moves me how Amma makes us

each feel touched in such a personal, perfectly

tailored way.

 

I also found myself really appreciating the Swamis and

some of the others in a new light. Gita and Lakshmi

both left a lovely impression on me, and Swamiji had a

really warm, intelligent and loving conversation with

me on bringing love and compassion into interaction

with "worldly people," and how we all benefit from the

subtlest adjustment in where we communicate from.

 

Again, in LA, I asked Amma over and over for a name,

as I have for a few years now, and She kept telling me

to wait another day until the opportunity was lost

entirely.

 

I got swept up in a rush of loving energy during Devi

Bhava and couldn't tear myself away from seva long

enough to be near Mother. Finally when Corey and I

went for (a really long!!) darshan together, I decided

that I couldn't bear to watch Her leave, and in

desperation, I fled the last few minutes of the

program.

 

Two days went by of everything feeling wrong, until

Corey called me at work and said, "This check just

came in, birthday money that had gotten lost in the

mail. It's $500! Go to New Mexico!" So I did.

 

I took the Greyhound, bizarre and painful, as usual.

22 hours later I was there, and my roommate was Rachel

(Prashanti) from this list! And she is marvelous...

 

New Mexico was even better than LA for me. I almost

don't want to share the experiences yet, but I will

once they've soaked in a bit. Amma named me the

morning of Guru Purnima... Prajna, which means "pure

consciousness." It's a big name for me who feels

smaller that ever, but how lovely it was to hear Amma

call me by name!

 

The pada puja on Guru Purnima was so beautiful. I

cried and cried, thinking "more flowers! more

flowers!" Prashanti and I seemed to have morphed into

little girls, and I found myself playful and in the

moment, full of happy tears and every waking moment

seeming like some beautiful dream.

 

Devi Bhava found me sick with a fever and overwhelmed

by devotees ranting about sleeping newcomers,

newcomers ranting about pushy devotees, and other

leelas that sprung up wherever I went. Spent quite a

bit of time exhausted in the hotel room, but somehow

felt closer to Amma there than I did when I was

sitting on the stage.

 

Was offered many rides to Texas, but felt satisfied

and like I had a LOT to work on, so I came home.

 

Having several hours between hotel check out and bus,

I went to a beautiful Catholic church and prayed to

the Mother. I also saw Farenheight 911, which I

strongly encourage everyone to see. It's not easy to

watch, but it created a riot of love in my heart and I

bow to Michael Moore's feet and thank him for his

compassion in action.

 

I also learned during the LA retreat that my new

apartment is right behind the Vedanta Society in

Hollywood, founded by Vivekananda, disciple of

Ramakrishna and Sarada Devi. Since coming home I've

been going to the temple and plan to take classes in

Sanskrit and the Gita. The Swamis and devotees there

seem to have a lot of love and respect for Amma.

 

My whole life just feels so blessed right now. I feel

so grateful to Amma. I miss you guys, and am sending

my love.

 

Jai Jai Jai Ma

 

Prajna

(Brianna)

 

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