Guest guest Posted June 30, 2004 Report Share Posted June 30, 2004 Dear Brothers and Sisters, I don't want to sound like a tempermental child, but I want to feel closer to my brothers and sisters today. I am going through a very difficult time. I seem to have lost all faith in our Mother! Why would this happen? I can only think that I have been praying very hard to be able to cry for her because I could not. Did this some how come about to make me more able to cry. It is working. But now all I have are extreme fear and doubt. I had such a bad night. I woke up to the sound of some one's car alarm, only to find out it was MINE. I don't HAVE a car alarm!! At least I never heard it go off before and I have had this car for at least a year. The previous owner never told me it had one. In any case It went off three times last night. I finally just left my car unlocked so it wouldn't go off again. Then as I am driving to work my breaks are going out and getting worst as I drove on to work, it seemed like within minutes. As you all know I am already stressed out about not getting the child support that I need. In any case it had to be fixed and is in the shop. I feel like the more I am praying the more bad things are happening. I remember a story yesterday in the postings about Man A and Man B on the Island, Perhaps your prayers will be heard if mine are not strong enough. I just feel lost and alone right now. I feel like Mother has left me! I have SO MANY doubts about Amma now!!! I have never had this. Not to this extent. I know you are all praying for me, I only want to hear from all of you so I can feel Mothers love again. I only want to believe and have faith in our Mother again. I don't care about the money, I just want to believe again!!! Someone PLEASE help guide me back to my Mother!!! At Amma's Lotus Feet, Robin Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 2, 2004 Report Share Posted July 2, 2004 Namah Shivaya, The following recent experience I had with Amma, might help your faith in Her. I was sitting about 25-30 feet in front of Amma, watching the expressions on Her face as She hugged a continuous stream of various people. I thought, "I wonder what She is seeing?," since She appeared to be observing something as She hugged each person. Amma then glanced at me, & I now know that even a glance from a mahatma has significance. Then I had the realization that Amma is merged with God, & that God just IS everything. With that thought, Amma looked directly at me (over someone's shoulder while giving yet another darshan) & smiled mostly with Her eyes, raised her eyebrows & lifted Her chin. It was defintely look of affirmation. Robin Wilson <lilymoonjewel wrote: Dear Brothers and Sisters, I don't want to sound like a tempermental child, but I want to feel closer to my brothers and sisters today. I am going through a very difficult time. I seem to have lost all faith in our Mother! Why would this happen? I can only think that I have been praying very hard to be able to cry for her because I could not. Did this some how come about to make me more able to cry. It is working. But now all I have are extreme fear and doubt. I had such a bad night. I woke up to the sound of some one's car alarm, only to find out it was MINE. I don't HAVE a car alarm!! At least I never heard it go off before and I have had this car for at least a year. The previous owner never told me it had one. In any case It went off three times last night. I finally just left my car unlocked so it wouldn't go off again. Then as I am driving to work my breaks are going out and getting worst as I drove on to work, it seemed like within minutes. As you all know I am already stressed out about not getting the child support that I need. In any case it had to be fixed and is in the shop. I feel like the more I am praying the more bad things are happening. I remember a story yesterday in the postings about Man A and Man B on the Island, Perhaps your prayers will be heard if mine are not strong enough. I just feel lost and alone right now. I feel like Mother has left me! I have SO MANY doubts about Amma now!!! I have never had this. Not to this extent. I know you are all praying for me, I only want to hear from all of you so I can feel Mothers love again. I only want to believe and have faith in our Mother again. I don't care about the money, I just want to believe again!!! Someone PLEASE help guide me back to my Mother!!! At Amma's Lotus Feet, Robin Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Ammachi/ Ammachi Mail is new and improved - Check it out! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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