Guest guest Posted March 12, 2004 Report Share Posted March 12, 2004 Namaste, Robin, are you ok? Love, Snehalata Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 12, 2004 Report Share Posted March 12, 2004 Namaste, Its very strange that you should ask that. No I am not. I have started a new birth control pill because I was allergic to my last one, and it spiraled me into a deep depression in a matter of days. I haven't felt this way sense I was a young teenager. I feel like I am shackled at the bottom of the Sea and Im swimming and swimming and I can't reach the top. A dark cloud is following me everywhere I go, and I ball like a baby. I had thoughts that I don't want to live life anymore, that it is too difficult, which is NOT me. I love life and have every reason to live. I called my doctor though and she told me to stop the pill immediatly. I think it will just take a few days to come back to my usual happy, jovial, self. I think Ill be fine then. Its been a horrible week. I will write in a couple of days to let you know how everything is. At Amma's Feet, Robin Dixie Thacker <dixielou wrote: Namaste, Robin, are you ok? Love, Snehalata Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Ammachi/ Ammachi Search - Find what you’re looking for faster. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 17, 2004 Report Share Posted March 17, 2004 Robinji, Namah Shivayah. Are you feeling any better? You may find eventually that as your spiritual senses highten, you will not be able to take bc pills. I can't, the effects are awful. Not saying that all women will have this experience, but some are just more sensitive. Had a funny daydream of Amma as Kali looking like a giant thunderstorm-goddess and crushing your depression into tiny bits with Her fist! Reminds me of a good story Ramaa Devi told us in San Ramon this weekend. I'm going to horribly paraphrase it. She had been assisting the darshan line all during a summer tour, and feeling very blissful and at peace. Everyone was commenting on how radiant she was. One day, as she was assisting the line, she began having very negative thoughts about each of the people comming up for darshan. Needless to say, she was horrified!! So she began to visualize. Whenever a negative thought would come up, she imagined it floating up as a big, pink, bubble-demon, and Amma would pop it with Her trident! As the pink demons burst, Amma would laugh a big, boistrous "Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh!" So finally when Ramaa Devi recieved Her own darshan, Amma leaned down to her and laughed "Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh!" in the same booming voice! Ramaa Devi was actually telling this story to illustrate a concept called "Maranam" (I'm not sure if I heard this word correctly, maybe someone else knows?). It is the ruthless rejection of negative thoughts, and Ramaa Devi was encouraging us to incorporate it into our spiritual practice. Try it, it's fun! I've been chanting "Shanti, shanti (peace, peace)" to my negative thoughts, and imagining them turning into flowers that I offer to Amma. It really works. Om Amriteswaryai Namaha love, Brianna --- Robin Wilson <lilymoonjewel wrote: > Namaste, > > Its very strange that you should ask that. No I > am not. I have started a new birth control pill > because I was allergic to my last one, and it > spiraled me into a deep depression in a matter of > days. I haven't felt this way sense I was a young > teenager. I feel like I am shackled at the bottom of > the Sea and Im swimming and swimming and I can't > reach the top. A dark cloud is following me > everywhere I go, and I ball like a baby. I had > thoughts that I don't want to live life anymore, > that it is too difficult, which is NOT me. I love > life and have every reason to live. I called my > doctor though and she told me to stop the pill > immediatly. I think it will just take a few days to > come back to my usual happy, jovial, self. I think > Ill be fine then. Its been a horrible week. I will > write in a couple of days to let you know how > everything is. > > At Amma's Feet, > Robin > > Dixie Thacker <dixielou wrote: > Namaste, > > Robin, are you ok? > > Love, > Snehalata > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > Sponsor > > > > Links > > > Ammachi/ > > > Ammachi > > Your use of is subject to the > > > > > > > Search - Find what you’re looking for faster. > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > Links > > > Ammachi > > > Mail - More reliable, more storage, less spam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 17, 2004 Report Share Posted March 17, 2004 Namaste Brianna, Yes I am back to ol' self 100%. It feels so good to be me again. I would like to thank everyone for checking up on me. I really though drastic thoughts that I don't want to ever think again. I tried despritely to clink to Amma's feet, it was just so clouded. I am on my old pill which is working just fine, I don't think I will ever try and change it again. ;-)~ I would also like to thank everyone for the response on the Kali and Durga email...so much interesting conversation! Hope everyone is doing fine. All my love and prayers. At Amma's Feet, Robin Brianna Mosteller <rubyrapunzel wrote: Robinji, Namah Shivayah. Are you feeling any better? You may find eventually that as your spiritual senses highten, you will not be able to take bc pills. I can't, the effects are awful. Not saying that all women will have this experience, but some are just more sensitive. Had a funny daydream of Amma as Kali looking like a giant thunderstorm-goddess and crushing your depression into tiny bits with Her fist! Reminds me of a good story Ramaa Devi told us in San Ramon this weekend. I'm going to horribly paraphrase it. She had been assisting the darshan line all during a summer tour, and feeling very blissful and at peace. Everyone was commenting on how radiant she was. One day, as she was assisting the line, she began having very negative thoughts about each of the people comming up for darshan. Needless to say, she was horrified!! So she began to visualize. Whenever a negative thought would come up, she imagined it floating up as a big, pink, bubble-demon, and Amma would pop it with Her trident! As the pink demons burst, Amma would laugh a big, boistrous "Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh!" So finally when Ramaa Devi recieved Her own darshan, Amma leaned down to her and laughed "Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh!" in the same booming voice! Ramaa Devi was actually telling this story to illustrate a concept called "Maranam" (I'm not sure if I heard this word correctly, maybe someone else knows?). It is the ruthless rejection of negative thoughts, and Ramaa Devi was encouraging us to incorporate it into our spiritual practice. Try it, it's fun! I've been chanting "Shanti, shanti (peace, peace)" to my negative thoughts, and imagining them turning into flowers that I offer to Amma. It really works. Om Amriteswaryai Namaha love, Brianna --- Robin Wilson wrote: > Namaste, > > Its very strange that you should ask that. No I > am not. I have started a new birth control pill > because I was allergic to my last one, and it > spiraled me into a deep depression in a matter of > days. I haven't felt this way sense I was a young > teenager. I feel like I am shackled at the bottom of > the Sea and Im swimming and swimming and I can't > reach the top. A dark cloud is following me > everywhere I go, and I ball like a baby. I had > thoughts that I don't want to live life anymore, > that it is too difficult, which is NOT me. I love > life and have every reason to live. I called my > doctor though and she told me to stop the pill > immediatly. I think it will just take a few days to > come back to my usual happy, jovial, self. I think > Ill be fine then. Its been a horrible week. I will > write in a couple of days to let you know how > everything is. > > At Amma's Feet, > Robin > > Dixie Thacker wrote: > Namaste, > > Robin, are you ok? > > Love, > Snehalata > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > Sponsor > > > > Links > > > Ammachi/ > > > Ammachi > > Your use of is subject to the > > > > > > > Search - Find what you’re looking for faster. > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > Links > > > Ammachi > > > Mail - More reliable, more storage, less spam Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Mail - More reliable, more storage, less spam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted March 18, 2004 Report Share Posted March 18, 2004 Aum Amriteswarye Namah! Jai Ma To stay at 100 percent pray heartily. Never worry Amma is with you 100 per cent. Sri Ramakrishna used to say, "the wind of God's grace is ever flowing, just put up your sail." For me prayer is the best medicine. When depressed it is often difficult for me to pray heartily. When so blessed, I grit my teeth and fake it. Please stay better. G4M Robin Wilson <lilymoonjewel wrote: Namaste Brianna, Yes I am back to ol' self 100%. It feels so good to be me again. I would like to thank everyone for checking up on me. I really though drastic thoughts that I don't want to ever think again. I tried despritely to clink to Amma's feet, it was just so clouded. I am on my old pill which is working just fine, I don't think I will ever try and change it again. ;-)~ I would also like to thank everyone for the response on the Kali and Durga email...so much interesting conversation! Hope everyone is doing fine. All my love and prayers. At Amma's Feet, Robin Brianna Mosteller wrote: Robinji, Namah Shivayah. Are you feeling any better? You may find eventually that as your spiritual senses highten, you will not be able to take bc pills. I can't, the effects are awful. Not saying that all women will have this experience, but some are just more sensitive. Had a funny daydream of Amma as Kali looking like a giant thunderstorm-goddess and crushing your depression into tiny bits with Her fist! Reminds me of a good story Ramaa Devi told us in San Ramon this weekend. I'm going to horribly paraphrase it. She had been assisting the darshan line all during a summer tour, and feeling very blissful and at peace. Everyone was commenting on how radiant she was. One day, as she was assisting the line, she began having very negative thoughts about each of the people comming up for darshan. Needless to say, she was horrified!! So she began to visualize. Whenever a negative thought would come up, she imagined it floating up as a big, pink, bubble-demon, and Amma would pop it with Her trident! As the pink demons burst, Amma would laugh a big, boistrous "Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh!" So finally when Ramaa Devi recieved Her own darshan, Amma leaned down to her and laughed "Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh! Huh!" in the same booming voice! Ramaa Devi was actually telling this story to illustrate a concept called "Maranam" (I'm not sure if I heard this word correctly, maybe someone else knows?). It is the ruthless rejection of negative thoughts, and Ramaa Devi was encouraging us to incorporate it into our spiritual practice. Try it, it's fun! I've been chanting "Shanti, shanti (peace, peace)" to my negative thoughts, and imagining them turning into flowers that I offer to Amma. It really works. Om Amriteswaryai Namaha love, Brianna --- Robin Wilson wrote: > Namaste, > > Its very strange that you should ask that. No I > am not. I have started a new birth control pill > because I was allergic to my last one, and it > spiraled me into a deep depression in a matter of > days. I haven't felt this way sense I was a young > teenager. I feel like I am shackled at the bottom of > the Sea and Im swimming and swimming and I can't > reach the top. A dark cloud is following me > everywhere I go, and I ball like a baby. I had > thoughts that I don't want to live life anymore, > that it is too difficult, which is NOT me. I love > life and have every reason to live. I called my > doctor though and she told me to stop the pill > immediatly. I think it will just take a few days to > come back to my usual happy, jovial, self. I think > Ill be fine then. Its been a horrible week. I will > write in a couple of days to let you know how > everything is. > > At Amma's Feet, > Robin > > Dixie Thacker wrote: > Namaste, > > Robin, are you ok? > > Love, > Snehalata > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > > > Sponsor > > > > Links > > > Ammachi/ > > > Ammachi > > Your use of is subject to the > > > > > > > Search - Find what you’re looking for faster. > > [Non-text portions of this message have been > removed] > > > > Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! > Links > > > Ammachi > > > Mail - More reliable, more storage, less spam Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Mail - More reliable, more storage, less spam Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha! Mail - More reliable, more storage, less spam Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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