Ma Kundalini and Her fiery lessons....

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Namah Shivayah

 

Beloved friends, thank you all so much for your

wisdom. I am constantly in awe of the grace and love

that shines through in the words posted here.

 

I wasn't able to read any of your responses for the

last two days because of some still unexplained

computer problems, which seem to have dissapeared! It

looked like I was on my own.

 

I'm still not completely sure what's going on. I had a

long talk with my roommates about some of the things

upsetting me. One of the problems is that, of the four

of us in the house, three are smokers, and since the

weather has been cold, they've been smoking in the

house. I used to smoke, and giving it up was a really

big deal to me- something I surrendered to Amma. I

really don't like the smoke constantly in the air- I

don't think it's right to make me and our cats breathe

it in all the time. I have a picture of Mother in

front of my computer monitor, and each time I sit down

to read my e-mail there is an ashtray sitting right in

front of it! It's just a piece of a bigger puzzle... I

feel like I'm just on a differant page. I don't want

to live in a house with the tv always on, the smoking,

and having to clean up beer bottles, ect. I'm trying

to be healthy and I think it makes my friends feel

guilty.

 

Anyway, after speaking to them, I feel less angry, and

everyone said that they would try to smoke next to the

fireplace, and keep a window open. But I still feel

the energy of the house in a downward spiral. I ended

up with a sore throat, and thought about the throat

chakra and how it pertains to speaking our truth. I

seem to be at a really intense part of the spiritual

journey, and it's hard to go through it while

constantly faced with all this depressing behavior.

 

I went to see a friend who is a reiki therapist

yesterday. He is the friend who introduced me to Amma,

and has been a very supportive guide over the last few

years. He told me that he felt the kundalini moving

through me, the "river" of energy I'd been feeling. He

said that it was breaking up some anger I'd been

holding for a long time, and that the intense

vibration I was feeling was the resistance of the

little self to the kundalini. The trick, he said, was

to let go and let Mother do Her work, to feel and

acknowledge what was being released, and to give it to

Her. He also gave me some kundalini yoga techniques to

open up the throat and navel centers, the two areas

that felt the most stuck.

 

Then, yesterday I was teaching an ashtanga class, and

as I was demonstrating trikonasana, a pose I do every

day, I felt something pull in my back, right around

the the navel chakra! I made it through the class

without alarming my students. It's important to me

that they trust me, and I want them to focus on

themselves without worrying about me. But my back

hurts so much now! I have had serious back problems

before, and I'm concerned about this. I taught again

today, and just couldn't show any of the poses. I had

to use one of the advanced students to demonstrate.

 

The last time my back went out was right after my

first darshan. I believe that I was supposed to spend

time focusing inward, and being forced to lie down for

months was the only way I could slow down and let it

happen. I hope it won't come to that again, but I know

that it's time for some serious inward looking again.

 

The vibrations are very strong. Sometimes it feels

good, and sometimes I just can't stop crying. I miss

Mother so much right now, and am dreaming about Her

almost every night. There are moments when I feel like

my soul is about to fly out of my body, right out of

the top of my head!

 

This is all pretty new to me. One thing that has been

fun, is that I've started writing bhajans! I've been a

singer/songwriter for years, (I play piano and sing)

but the words for bhajans had not come. Now they are

coming fast! I hope to translate them into malayalam

and sing them for Amma someday.

 

Thank you all so much for your love and light. I'll

keep you posted.

 

Om Amriteswaryai Namaha

 

Brianna

 

 

 

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Brianna:

 

What you are going through is probably cleansing of the chakras(feel

surges of energy in the body, energy up and down the spine,

pain/tinkling at the position of the chakras etc). When kundalini

truly awakens in the Muladhara, one levitates LOL (Muladhara is the

seat of the earth element, which is what weighs us down); till then

it is probably cleansing of the chakras(a good resource on what to do

is Kundalini tantra by Satyananda Saraswati, Bihar School of Yoga,

there are several good tips in there).

 

I have a three pronged approach when any major disturbance happens,

and I find it almost removes any kind of trouble.

 

- relax the body (preferably be in Shavasana)

- once you are relaxed, slow down your breathing so that you are

breathing at the rate of 3 breaths/minute or lower(use a watch to

time it), and breath through the diaphragm; the breath should be very

smooth, no jumps in the breath, staying like this for 5 minutes puts

you in an emotional high

 

- now the kicker, practice the spinal breath; this is the best

technique out there for kundalini type disturbances. This is

described as Kundalini pranayama in Swami Sivananda's Science of

Pranayama (available free at www.dlshq.org) or even better in Norman

Paulsen's Science of Meditation( i highly recommend this book); there

is also a good discussion of this at the list -

advancedyogapractices.

 

Correctly practicing the spinal breath(along with slow breathing)

will greatly enliven yoga asanas; you feel absolutely wonderful and

infact is one of the best practices for kundalini disturbances.

 

Aum Namasivaya

-yogaman

 

Ammachi, Brianna Mosteller <rubyrapunzel>

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