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Namah Shivayah,

 

Dear ones, I'm having a little problem. I am

experiencing consistant waves of anger, for no

apparant reason. Of course there are things in my life

that I feel dissatisfied with, but nothing to cause

such ceaseless, flowing anger. It really feels like

that, like a river of negativity is flowing right

through me! Every day is getting worse, my fiance is

teasing me about my "baby Kali Bhava!" So here are the

details;

 

1) In the past, I have tended to express anger through

sadness, which I generally have kept to myself. I'm

one of those people who (until now) has tried to

process my emotions in private and then be able to

speak about a problem later with more patience and

compassion. Now, I'm just stewing constantly, and

biting people's heads off for the silliest things! And

no, it's not PMS

2) I am doing a LOT (read: A LOT) more spiritual

practices. My personal yoga practice, in addition to

the classes I teach, has grown to a full three hours a

day, which I feel I desperately need to release the

frantic river of rage! I am chanting my mantra all the

time, too, which is new for me. It used to be

pleasant, but something I had to remind myself to do.

Now it is playing in my head like a broken record! My

thoughts are constantly on Amma, as I am having to

pray to Her to help me keep a cool head all day long.

3) I have so much energy, it feels like I just drank

10 cups of coffee at all times. I don't drink

caffiene. I don't even know if I spelled it correctly!

The best way I can describe it is like a river of

really intense energy flowing up and somehow making me

a very short-tempered girl. Not myself at all, what is

going on?! Am I developing a mental illness? Why am I

being such a b*tch? I feel so judgemental and just on

fire all the time!!! Aaahhhhhh!!! My life is pretty

good right now, I really don't have room to complain.

 

Please share your thoughts, beloved friends. I miss

the mellow, good-natured girl I used to be. Something

is moving through me and I feel thoroughly rattled.

 

love and pranams,

 

Brianna

 

 

 

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i guess, channel your anger into a lot of seva for amma, see the goodness in

each one, and have patience. time heals everything. hang on.

 

Brianna Mosteller <rubyrapunzel wrote:Namah Shivayah,

 

Dear ones, I'm having a little problem. I am

experiencing consistant waves of anger, for no

apparant reason. Of course there are things in my life

that I feel dissatisfied with, but nothing to cause

such ceaseless, flowing anger. It really feels like

that, like a river of negativity is flowing right

through me! Every day is getting worse, my fiance is

teasing me about my "baby Kali Bhava!" So here are the

details;

 

1) In the past, I have tended to express anger through

sadness, which I generally have kept to myself. I'm

one of those people who (until now) has tried to

process my emotions in private and then be able to

speak about a problem later with more patience and

compassion. Now, I'm just stewing constantly, and

biting people's heads off for the silliest things! And

no, it's not PMS

2) I am doing a LOT (read: A LOT) more spiritual

practices. My personal yoga practice, in addition to

the classes I teach, has grown to a full three hours a

day, which I feel I desperately need to release the

frantic river of rage! I am chanting my mantra all the

time, too, which is new for me. It used to be

pleasant, but something I had to remind myself to do.

Now it is playing in my head like a broken record! My

thoughts are constantly on Amma, as I am having to

pray to Her to help me keep a cool head all day long.

3) I have so much energy, it feels like I just drank

10 cups of coffee at all times. I don't drink

caffiene. I don't even know if I spelled it correctly!

The best way I can describe it is like a river of

really intense energy flowing up and somehow making me

a very short-tempered girl. Not myself at all, what is

going on?! Am I developing a mental illness? Why am I

being such a b*tch? I feel so judgemental and just on

fire all the time!!! Aaahhhhhh!!! My life is pretty

good right now, I really don't have room to complain.

 

Please share your thoughts, beloved friends. I miss

the mellow, good-natured girl I used to be. Something

is moving through me and I feel thoroughly rattled.

 

love and pranams,

 

Brianna

 

 

 

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Hari OM! OM Amriteswariye Namaha!

 

Dear Brianna,

 

How is your language studies (Malayalam) going on?

 

The following is an article by Swami Sivanandaji regarding Anger,

Please reflect on this, hope this helps you at least little bit.

 

A terrible fit of anger shatters the physical nervous system. It

produces a lasting impression on the inner astral body. Although the

effects of a fit of anger may seem to subside in a short time, the

vibration or wave, continues to exist for days in the astral body. A

slight unpleasant feeling that lasts in the mind for five minutes,

may produce a deep inflammation of the astral body. It may take

several weeks or months even for this ulcer to heal.

 

Now, have you realised the disastrous consequences of anger? Do not

be victims of anger. Control it by love, mercy, sympathy, vicara

(enquiry) and consideration for others. Even slight annoyance, or

irritability, affects the mind and the astral body.

 

Aspirants should not allow these vrttis (thought-waves) to manifest

in the mind-lake, as they may burst out as big waves of anger at any

moment, if you are careless or weak. There should not be the least

disturbance in the mind-lake it should be perfectly calm and serene.

Then only you will find meditation possible.

 

It is difficult to control anger. Anger is a manifestation of sakti

(energy). At first, try to reduce its force. and its frequency of

duration. Endeavour to attenuate or thin out this formidable

modification of the mind.

 

Do not allow this modification to assume the form of a big wave on

the surface of the conscious mind. Nip it in the bud when it is in

the form of irritability. Divert the mind. Entertain divine thoughts.

Do vigorous japa (repetition of God's name) and kirtan (chanting).

Repeat some prayers or slokas (verses) from the scriptures.

 

Develop the opposite, divine qualities. Develop patience, love,

forgiveness - anger will die by itself, gradually. Blessed are those

high-souled people who can control their anger by pure, strong will

and intellect.

 

Be serene. Serenity is like a rock. Waves may dash on it but they

cannot affect it. Waves of irritation may break on this rock of

serenity but they cannot affect it. Meditate daily on the ever-

tranquil atman (self). You will attain this sublime virtue of

serenity gradually.

 

With Love & OM!

 

May Amma Bless YOU.

 

Om Amriteswariye Namaha!

Om Nama Shivaya!

 

Krishna Prasad

 

 

 

Ammachi, Brianna Mosteller <rubyrapunzel>

wrote:

> Namah Shivayah,

>

> Dear ones, I'm having a little problem. I am

> experiencing consistant waves of anger, for no

> apparant reason. Of course there are things in my life

> that I feel dissatisfied with, but nothing to cause

> such ceaseless, flowing anger. It really feels like

> that, like a river of negativity is flowing right

> through me! Every day is getting worse, my fiance is

> teasing me about my "baby Kali Bhava!" So here are the

> details;

>

> 1) In the past, I have tended to express anger through

> sadness, which I generally have kept to myself. I'm

> one of those people who (until now) has tried to

> process my emotions in private and then be able to

> speak about a problem later with more patience and

> compassion. Now, I'm just stewing constantly, and

> biting people's heads off for the silliest things! And

> no, it's not PMS

> 2) I am doing a LOT (read: A LOT) more spiritual

> practices. My personal yoga practice, in addition to

> the classes I teach, has grown to a full three hours a

> day, which I feel I desperately need to release the

> frantic river of rage! I am chanting my mantra all the

> time, too, which is new for me. It used to be

> pleasant, but something I had to remind myself to do.

> Now it is playing in my head like a broken record! My

> thoughts are constantly on Amma, as I am having to

> pray to Her to help me keep a cool head all day long.

> 3) I have so much energy, it feels like I just drank

> 10 cups of coffee at all times. I don't drink

> caffiene. I don't even know if I spelled it correctly!

> The best way I can describe it is like a river of

> really intense energy flowing up and somehow making me

> a very short-tempered girl. Not myself at all, what is

> going on?! Am I developing a mental illness? Why am I

> being such a b*tch? I feel so judgemental and just on

> fire all the time!!! Aaahhhhhh!!! My life is pretty

> good right now, I really don't have room to complain.

>

> Please share your thoughts, beloved friends. I miss

> the mellow, good-natured girl I used to be. Something

> is moving through me and I feel thoroughly rattled.

>

> love and pranams,

>

> Brianna

>

>

>

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Dear Brianna,

 

I recall that you posted recently about having an intense spiritual awakening.

It's been

my experience that it's natural to have our impurities rise up along with the

spiritual

energy. After the initial taste of bliss comes the hard work! ;-) It doesn't

sound like

mental illness to me. It sounds like a normal process along the spiritual path.

Hang in

there! =)

 

Love,

Iswari

 

Ammachi, Brianna Mosteller <rubyrapunzel> wrote:

> Namah Shivayah,

>

> Dear ones, I'm having a little problem. I am

> experiencing consistant waves of anger, for no

> apparant reason. Of course there are things in my life

> that I feel dissatisfied with, but nothing to cause

> such ceaseless, flowing anger. It really feels like

> that, like a river of negativity is flowing right

> through me! Every day is getting worse, my fiance is

> teasing me about my "baby Kali Bhava!" So here are the

> details;

>

> 1) In the past, I have tended to express anger through

> sadness, which I generally have kept to myself. I'm

> one of those people who (until now) has tried to

> process my emotions in private and then be able to

> speak about a problem later with more patience and

> compassion. Now, I'm just stewing constantly, and

> biting people's heads off for the silliest things! And

> no, it's not PMS

> 2) I am doing a LOT (read: A LOT) more spiritual

> practices. My personal yoga practice, in addition to

> the classes I teach, has grown to a full three hours a

> day, which I feel I desperately need to release the

> frantic river of rage! I am chanting my mantra all the

> time, too, which is new for me. It used to be

> pleasant, but something I had to remind myself to do.

> Now it is playing in my head like a broken record! My

> thoughts are constantly on Amma, as I am having to

> pray to Her to help me keep a cool head all day long.

> 3) I have so much energy, it feels like I just drank

> 10 cups of coffee at all times. I don't drink

> caffiene. I don't even know if I spelled it correctly!

> The best way I can describe it is like a river of

> really intense energy flowing up and somehow making me

> a very short-tempered girl. Not myself at all, what is

> going on?! Am I developing a mental illness? Why am I

> being such a b*tch? I feel so judgemental and just on

> fire all the time!!! Aaahhhhhh!!! My life is pretty

> good right now, I really don't have room to complain.

>

> Please share your thoughts, beloved friends. I miss

> the mellow, good-natured girl I used to be. Something

> is moving through me and I feel thoroughly rattled.

>

> love and pranams,

>

> Brianna

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Dear Sister Brianna,

 

Few things come to my mind:

 

1. Amma says, "when we are angry, we lose spiritual energy through

every pore in our bodies". So, convince yourself that all your

spiritual practices will amount to nought, if the spiritual energy

gained with such hardwork is lost so easily.

 

2. Anger is usually accompanied by before-effects and after-effects

such as lust, guilt, jealousy and greed. For all you know, anger may

just be the symptom. Fight the cause, not the symptom.

 

3. If your anger is because of your realizing your own faults, be

grateful than you can see them so clearly. Accept them and work

towards removing them.

 

4. If there is a certain 'void' in your life that is the cause, pick

a new hobby to re-direct your energy, like singing bhajans, even if

you aren't good at it initially.

 

5. Amma says that there are problems that can solved with Guru's or

God's grace. But then, there are those problems that are caused by

the human mind. Only the mind is capable of resolving them.

 

Amme Sharanam,

ota

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--- Brianna Mosteller <rubyrapunzel wrote:

> Namah Shivayah,

>

> Dear ones, I'm having a little problem. I am

> experiencing consistant waves of anger, for no

> apparant reason.

 

 

>From today's Times of India:

 

 

THE SPEAKING TREE

Don't Be Angry

 

[ WEDNESDAY, MARCH 03, 2004 12:00:26 AM ]

 

Give me that man That is not passion's slave, and I

will wear him in my heart's core, ay, in my heart of

heart. As I do thee.

 

William Shakespeare, ‘Hamlet'

 

 

Grief and disappointment give rise to anger; anger to

envy, envy to malice, and malice to grief again, till

the whole circle be completed.

 

David Hume

 

The fly cannot be driven away by getting angry at it.

 

Nigerian proverb

 

 

 

If there is someone fighting within you, it makes your

life unbearable. Anger has to be converted into

something else or it destroys you.

 

Anthony Hopkins, Hollywood actor

 

 

 

Why Sir, do you get angry at someone Who is angry with

you? What are you going to gain by it? How is he going

to lose by it? Your physical anger brings

dishonour on yourself. Your mental anger disturbs your

thinking. How can the fire in your house burn the

neighbour's house. Without engulfing your own?

 

Basavanna, Vacana 248

 

 

 

I am free of all prejudice. I hate everyone equally.

 

W C Fields

 

 

The ruling passion, be it what it will

The ruling passion conquers reason still.

 

Alexander Pope

 

 

Above item found while visiting the Times of India,

looking for news items about the Brahmasthanam

festival in Pune (wrapped up today), or Amma's

upcoming programs in Mumbai (begins tomorrow, with

another Brahmasthanam festival this weekend).. I

didn't find anything in today's edition, but will keep

visiting timesofindia.indiatimes.com over the next few

days.

 

Keval

 

 

 

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Dear Brianna,

 

I experienced something similar a few years back, when I first

started along my spiritual path. I had an INTENSE experience, and

then for the next couple of weeks, felt like I was absolutely INSANE

(or on some sort of drug trip)! It sounds to me like you're having

some kundalini movement as well with the extra energy and all. With

as much sadhna as you've been doing lately, I am not surprised! Here

are some things that helped me get through my period of intensity

without having to check myself into a hospital ...

 

Take some time for yourself daily. Also, make it a point to stay

SILENT for at least an hour a day (not in your yoga practice). This

will give you the chance to calm yourself inside and also 'watch' how

you are feeling.

 

When you feel the anger, allow it to go through you, but don't let it

stick anywhere. Think of water through a sieve (I'm not sure if I

spelled THAT right!).

 

I'm not sure if you are a vegetarian, but if you're not, avoid eating

meat. Also avoid eating spicy foods. Drink a LOT of herbal tea and

water.

 

Get plenty of SLEEP. Rest your brain and body and soul.

 

I was also twitching a lot (ie, my limbs would suddenly twitch when I

was laying down or relaxing in the least), had the tingles/chills,

tired all of the time, and had the inability to hold any sort of

concentration. I likened that period to my insides being scrubbed

with an SOS pad.

 

What you're experiencing is normal! Try and remember that.

 

Email me if you want to!

 

With love,

Niseema

sugarandbrine at dot com

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Om Peace, Shanti Peace Peace Peace:

 

Amma received a question about this during a San Ramon Question and Answer

session. I was blessed to be present during this question. The questioner was

a middle aged man.

 

Question: It's just since a year and a half since you gave me my mantra. Many a

times things that I used to get crazy about or very angry, I start, but a split

second later my mantra comes to me and I'm at peace. Still there are times when

I go automatic, I'm not present environmentally, but dissident and angry.

Besides continuing to pray and chanting the mantra are there any suggestions

that you have. Maybe others who have this thing too will benefit and …(not

audible) to accelerate the connection. When I'm angry, I'm not aware that I'm a

part of all consciousness. I separate apart and I feel that I have to defend the

little peace that I think I have.

 

Amma: Amma says that it is not because of the anger you feel. It is not because

there is something wrong with the mantra, or don't think that it is because of

your chanting the mantra. Whenever the mind becomes agitated there are negative

thoughts, such as anger, hatred. Try to discriminate and see what's really

happening within. Why am I getting angry? what is the root cause? Is the cause

in him or in me?, and keep on asking the question to your own mind, to your own

self, and as we go deeper and deeper will find that the cause is within us. It's

not the outside object or it doesn't come from outside or another person. The

source is within. Amma says, the root cause of anger is ego. It's also important

to remember that the mantra japa or the particular mantra that we are using is

not only a way to reach God, but also other actions like discrimination is a

mantra, performing actions with a selfless attitude is another mantra and prayer

is yet another mantra, chanting the name of God

is a mantra and doing actions with love is also a mantra.

However, anger basically comes from vasanas or latent tendencies. That's why

Amma always tells us, in addition to performing spiritual practices such as

meditation, repeating the mantra, we should also read spiritual books especially

the life and teachings of great masters. Contemplation on the teachings of

mahatmas is also very important. When we trace back to the source of any

negative thoughts we will find that most of the time we are getting angry

unnecessarily, without a real problem. There is no real cause to it. When we

really search to the root cause of it, trace back to the source of negative

tendencies, we will find the ego disappearing or the negative thought

disappearing. When we ask the question , who are you? Where do you come from?

What is the source?, it disappears. Ask the question as strongly as you can, as

sincerely as you can. With whom am I angry and for what reason.

 

Another cause of anger, maybe in the unmanifested past, like in the previous

lifetime or sometime in the past. The root cause may be in that. In such cases

we may not be able to find the cause. Amma also says, the cause may also be due

to the fact that we did not receive enough love from our father or mother.

Because we haven't received fatherly love or motherly love we sometimes feel

angry. We feel obsessed with such negative thoughts. So, Amma says, whatever may

be the case when we become angry or when there are too many negative thoughts

within us, stop chanting the mantra or stop the meditation. Stop, get up and

walk. Go for a stroll in your backyard or somewhere where nobody will disturb

you. That will also help. And when the mind settles down, you can continue your

meditation or prayer. Amma says that there are layers and layers of thoughts or

such negative tendencies in our mind. As we go deeper and deeper, as we progress

in our spiritual practices these negative tendencies or

these impure thoughts will manifest more and more, so do not get frightened.

They manifest only to disappear. It is just like when we clean or wipe a cloth,

we will see more and more dirt coming out. So, it is only to disappear that all

the dirt is coming out, likewise the negative thoughts

 

Hope this cools the fire.

 

With Love,

 

G4M

 

 

 

Erica <sugarandbrine wrote:

 

Dear Brianna,

 

I experienced something similar a few years back, when I first

started along my spiritual path. I had an INTENSE experience, and

then for the next couple of weeks, felt like I was absolutely INSANE

(or on some sort of drug trip)! It sounds to me like you're having

some kundalini movement as well with the extra energy and all. With

as much sadhna as you've been doing lately, I am not surprised! Here

are some things that helped me get through my period of intensity

without having to check myself into a hospital ...

 

Take some time for yourself daily. Also, make it a point to stay

SILENT for at least an hour a day (not in your yoga practice). This

will give you the chance to calm yourself inside and also 'watch' how

you are feeling.

 

When you feel the anger, allow it to go through you, but don't let it

stick anywhere. Think of water through a sieve (I'm not sure if I

spelled THAT right!).

 

I'm not sure if you are a vegetarian, but if you're not, avoid eating

meat. Also avoid eating spicy foods. Drink a LOT of herbal tea and

water.

 

Get plenty of SLEEP. Rest your brain and body and soul.

 

I was also twitching a lot (ie, my limbs would suddenly twitch when I

was laying down or relaxing in the least), had the tingles/chills,

tired all of the time, and had the inability to hold any sort of

concentration. I likened that period to my insides being scrubbed

with an SOS pad.

 

What you're experiencing is normal! Try and remember that.

 

Email me if you want to!

 

With love,

Niseema

sugarandbrine at dot com

 

 

 

Aum Amriteswarayai Namaha!

 

 

 

Ammachi/

 

Ammachi

 

 

 

 

 

 

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