Amma answers prayers

[Guest guest]

Namah Shivaya!

 

I feel moved to share a recent experience concerning Amma's influence in my

life.

 

My mother had recently been behaving in a very antagonistic and vicious manner

towards me, treating me as if she despised me for some reason. I was very wary

of telling her my plan to move overseas because I wasn't sure I could handle her

reaction to the news (she is averse to my involvement in spirituality and has

not been at all supportive of my pursuits).

 

I prayed to Amma to soften my mother's heart and open her mind so that she would

be able to accept my decision to move to the ashram (I also prayed for the

ability to surrender fully to whatever her reaction is, even if "negative" and

asked Amma to heal our relationship and help us to feel love and empathy for

each other.

That same day, I came across several passages in which Amma speaks about needing

to relinquish our expectations and our attachment to the fruits of our actions.

I consequently worked on letting go of my need for my mother to react positively

to the news and finally gathered the courage to tell her about my decision

(albeit on the phone while she was at work! lol)

 

My mother was quite upset on the phone, so I expected her to return from work in

a rage (as was her tendency in the past)........but much to my amazement, her

reaction was the total opposite of what I expected it to be like, a complete

180. All the anger, criticism and contempt she had been unleashing on me for so

long dissolved into thin air, and she suddenly began treating me with love and

kindness - even going out of her way to nurture me and express her caring!

 

I later found out that the same day I prayed to Amma and moments after I told

her of my plans to relocate, my mother ran into a co-worker who engaged her in a

discussion about the fact that BOTH her sons made the decision to become

Buddhist monks and relocated to Tibet, where they hope to reside for the rest of

their lives! While I have no idea what this woman said that caused such a

radical shift in my mother, I know that Amma guided her to this particular

co-worker in order to effect this change in her and in our relationship with

each other. I am profoundly grateful to Amma for this blessing, and for all the

others She has showered upon me over the years despite my unworthiness!

 

Falling at our Mother's lotus feet,

 

Kirsten