thinking and not thinking about enlightenment

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Yes, Manoj... without a thought.

 

I try to abide by Amma's guidelines:

...."chant your mantra"

...."do more sadhana"

...."don't sleep past sunrise"

...."read stories about God"

 

....etc...without a thought for why I should do it,

whether I should do it, and what it will lead to...

 

I've noticed as I've been reading that I don't think

much about enlightenment. I think a lot about why I

don't chant my mantra enough (I promised at least 108

times a day), why I don't do sadhana, why I sometimes

feel mad at Mother or very far from Her, etc. I feel

like I shouldn't even begin thinking about

enlightenment until I've first done the things She's

asked.

 

It's like why I won't go to the chiropracter for my

back... When I go to the gym and to Yoga, my back pain

ceases. For the past year, I've been lazy and haven't

gone, so my back hurts again. I feel like I shouldn't

go and spend $200/month on a chiropracter when I KNOW

the Yoga and gym is cheaper and more effective and I'm

just being lazy.

 

Okay, it's NOT like that, but you know what I mean.

 

But I think what I'm trying to say is that I think

that is "surrender" for me. Simply practicing what

Amma teaches without regard for the "why" of it;

trusting Her to know what's best for me. I don't

expect enlightenment in this life, or even a broader

spiritual growth. I only hope to develop a consistent

spiritual practice according to Mother's guidance for

me.

 

Gabriela

 

> All I am saying is that THINKING is the first evil.

> Thinking easy or

> Thinking bumpy maybe the real cause, rather than the

> 'easy'

> or 'bumpy' which sound more like the symptom.

>

> Stop thinking. Start surrendering... to your karma,

> to your life

> situation, to everything.

 

 

 

 

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