SOMETIMES

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Sometimes we experience

Something in life

That makes a part of us die.

We become fragments of ourselves,

Living in a physical shell,

Thinking through an injured mind.

We think we are alive,

But we are living an illusion.

We try to be happy,

But we are living in confusion.

Sometimes we are abandoned

And have no family

We feel lost & lonely

Like a tiny boat

Adrift in an endless sea.

We cannot feel love

Because we gave up,

Locked up our hearts

And threw away the key

Afraid of loving & losing.

Our life force is compromised

Because we are living a lie

And sometimes we secretly wish

That we could simply die.

And so we do, one day at a time

We become a shadow

Of our spirituality,

But we don't even realize

That our isolation

Is all in our minds.

Our bodies communicate,

But we are not listening.

The temples of our Souls deteriorate

>From neglect & lack of nourishment.

Sometimes it's not until

We become desperate

That we begin seeking

The alternative

When we realize

There must be

Something more to life.

We search our hearts & Souls

Who were silenced

By our weakened minds.

We seek desperately

We wait patiently

We pray ferverently

Hoping beyond hope

That God will reply

And give us a sign.

Sometimes we are

Surprised when it arrives,

The answers to our prayers

Mysteriously, silently, subtly

Chup chupke, chorii se chorii,

Sri Ganapathi Sachchidananda Swamiji,

He enters our hearts

Sings to our Souls

Clears the cobwebs in our minds

And dances in our dreams

His Divine Holiness, Sri Swamiji

Connects us to the Datta family

We are no longer orphans

We are surrounded by Deities

Befriended by devotees

Embraced by the grace

Of our sweet, kind, loving Guruji,

Sri Ganapathi Sachchidananda Swamiji!

Sometimes we feel as though

We have died & gone to Heaven

To be blessed by the presence

Of such pure Divinity

We may wonder

How we could possibly

Deserve such an Avatar

Who serves the Universe so humbly

Who allows us to worship at his feet

Despite our hearts, minds & Souls, so weak

Sometimes we are bathed

In such profound energy

That the world disappears

And we have no desire to be here

Because we can feel our Soul

Separating from our bodies

And we never want

To lose that feeling

Of every single cell vibrating

Of floating without a care on thin air

Oh what sweet ecstasy!

But deep within our beings

We know we are destined

To be here, within earth's gravity

To balance our Karmas

To serve Sri Swamiji

To assist our Datta Family

Sometimes we need advice

>From someone who is wise

Because we don't trust ourselves

To make the best choices

But we do not want to stress

Prasadiji or Sri Swamiji

With our immaturity

By contacting them directly

And so we pray & lay

Our worries at Datta's Holy Feet

Miraculously, an answer is received

Another devotee becomes

A messenger with the

Guidance we need.

Sometimes we can't wait

To see Sri Swamiji

Our devotion is tested

And yet, when we see him

We may be afraid

Of what he may say

Thinking we have

Failed him in some way

Worried we are not

Pure enough to be

In his Divine company…

But most of the time, I find

That nothing else matters

When we are enraptured

In pure reverie by the symphony

Of love created & disseminated

By our Apaji, Sri Swamiji!

 

03.23.06