Guest guest Report post Posted May 7, 2003 > > Bobby, > > > > is there a way to do vichara > > at this point? > > > > I don't like my spontaneity... > > > > Dear Karta: > > Good question. I will admit that when I do atma vichara I feel like > it is Ramana in my heart instead of the guy I grew up being. I mean > the boy who worked in the grocery store, drew pictures, and was shy > around girls. There was always the inner person that never changed. > Vichara centers me on that inner person that I imagine is Ramana. > That is the centerpiece of my own attitude about pravilapa drishti, > all that seems separate from me is myself. this beautiful and useful, thanks Bobby > > I think what you are saying is you don't want to act spontaneously in > ways that get you into trouble and would > vichara eliminate this. > I don't know. no I don't know either, because it is after the fact and it happens when I am *out* of the mindful awareness and on the internet is one activity for me which does that. For me reading ignorance is painful, I don't know how to ignore them either; one way would be to get off line, but I meet many insightful people too > > There must be something about your impulsiveness that you like. > Maybe you like to be angry. It is a > pleasurable feeling. NO I HATE IT!! > Not so much > later when you have to extract yourself from the results. > > If you Forgive your transgressors you get > a similar release. with me it is not a matter of forgiveness, Bobby. I am not mad at a person at all just at the ignorance. I was always rebellious and when I am bullied with and drilled into stupidity I just rebel against it Love, Karta > > Love > Bobby G. Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
