This thread has become very interesting, there's a lot of stuff coming out and I can't help but feel that even though Rishi Prabhu seems to be getting a bit of a thrashing from some quarter, I also applaud his courage in revealing himself and his sincerity and strength of character is shining through despite his dilemma.
And your post valaya has moved me to tears, so open and honest,it's given me a big stick which I sorely need. I spend so much of my life beating my poor husband up because he doesn't seem to perform to my requirements, when in fact he is a good and honest man and deep down I feel he wishes me no ill and has deep affection for me, although like you say, like most men has difficulty in expressing intimate emotion, but I'd sure love him to try. Men dodn't like to feel vulnerable, it goes against their instinct. But you are right, they definitely need to, if not for them for the women in their life. A man's strong and loving involvement in the life of his partner speaks thunderbolts to her. Even though there is so much exploitation in the world from both genders, I appreciate the qualities of men very much when they're well-adjusted, and I'm sure the men feel the same way about the women. My father was a great man in my eyes,with wonderful qualities. In your post you say, we mean so much to you (men), how I hanker to hear those words from my husband. But no matter, your post has enlived me to try again to be a better wife, I wish to be like a swan (my sentimental aspiration) for him, not a crow or raven. But the genders do speak a different language at times, I do believe it, notso much literally of course, but the intent behind it. But I want to be there for him, to give support seeking to undertand him, we have to try and understand each other. We need to let each other know that we ar precious to each other and to really be precious. I wish him joy and all spiritual success and if I can be an instrument to help bring about any of those then Lord let me be it.
Getting back to Rishi Prabhu I like some, think from your posts that your girlfriend has found it rather easy to put the responsibility of your 'falldown' on your shoulders, taking responsibility for our own lust is not easy and her own responsibility for her own lust is obviously too much for her to bear, hence better you wear it. But I was thinking that the Lord puts us into distress to purify us, teach us lessons. You're ready for this lesson, she is not, and it may even happen again with her in another relationship down the track. I doubt whether it will happen to you, unless the Lord has some other purpose for it. You're learning your lesson and you will gain a little more entrance into a higher and deeper understanding. Srimad Bhagavatam says learned devotees accept even conditions of distress just to relieve or purify the devotee from the contamination of the material world. While one is within this material world one is in various conditions and therefore a devotee sees a condition of distress as but another feature of the Lord.This cannot be understood by non-devotees but the devotee can see this because he is vipascit, or learned. It's sometimes a huge ask to see the Lord in all our distressed conditions, because some times it feels as if due to so much distress, that we want to turn away, or worst still feel that it is killing our spiritual life in small increments, because we cannot focus with equipoise on keeping steady on the path until the hurricane blows over. This one will blow over Rishi Prabhu and you'll be the wiser. Thanks megaheaps for sharing your life. And also thanks to Jayaradhe for welcoming me to these forums. As you can see my contribution is not profound but I love to speak my heart with kind devotees and I can see that most everyone here are beautiful people.
In your service
Swan