mandakini

It is possible that he has given this advice to you specifically.

Maybe he saw something you needed.

Hreem enhances confidence and allows a woman to become a powerful woman - a true woman.

It allows for softness and femininity AND divine feminie power as well.

You should feel inside and see if it feels right to you.

I do not think you need to change everything you do, maybe he was trying to give you a boost.

Maybe he told you not to do rudram without initiation because you need to learn to do it properly with all of the mudras.

He did not say do not do rudram, he said do not do rudram without initiation.

When I sit for meditation I see eyes right in front of my eyes.

at first they are subtle and I do not notice then they become very obvious.

When I look at them I see that below the eyes is not a nose but a trunk and I feel I am seeing into Ganesha's eyes right in front of me.

What does this mean?