sweet Glo...

03-28-2001, 06:29 PM

Hi Gloria,

You said:
Dear Mark_sea,

On the other hand, if this is your ticket out of the
rat race, why jump back in? Just give up the cheese and take advantage
of your freedom to have an adventure..like join Greenpeace or something.

What were we thinking? I dunno about you, but someone
probably offered me a free trip and mentioned the ice cream cones were
good.

Love,
GullibleGlo

Yeah, I think that's where this is heading. What happened for me was
that I think my Mother wanted very much to make copies of her husband,
and my older brother wasn't cut out for it, so as a 12 year old, I leapt
into the breach and tried hard to rise to the occasion. At 40, I jumped
ship (my Dad already IS, so why should I pretend to be him?). I'm just
about to hit water. But the adventure I want is not a job or a career
or an event. It's losing attachment to all of those things and
realizing my true nature. I may well be far too self centered to
accomplish that though. I'm quite egotistical. (QUITE!!!!!!) (At least
that's what I see as being the bottom line of all of this) Oh, maybe
I'm just attached to my attachment. Reminds me of a song from the 60's
"I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in..."

ah, but now what? I'm thinking about becoming a monk, or moving to a
cool place and just pounding the pavement for a job, or... or... or... I
have nothing but infinite possibilities, to quote Mary. Send money and
I'll postpone the decision... (hey, if you're gonna be gullible, might
as well be generous too.)
Love, Mark
ps thanks for caring... all of you!