Help pls! Question about Ma Dhumavati

[johnnyUK 0]

Dear all,

Namaste

 

all my name is Johnny, 29, London.

I have recently started the baglamukhi sadhana, and kali before that, I fast every tues and some thurs too as per the instruction of my guru.

 

Recently I keep breaking up into tears about dhumavati... every time I think of her I am overcame with tears, I am obsessed with her and really feel lost... I feel that in my past life I suffered a great loss and ma dhumavati rescued / looked after me.. I wish to do her sadhana, not for any mal-purpose but I feel she is beckoning me.. dream of doing this sadhana and it is my wish that before I die I should at least once have the chance to complete her sadhana..

 

my spiritual journey came quite suddenly 2 yrs ago

Kali came to me 1st, I mean I was obsessed! I could not stop reading about her on the net, my thirst for knowledge about her was insatiable, my parents are also very pious and simple ppl, my dad is a shiv devotee and mum prays to durga maa and Krishna... for me there was no1 but kali. at 1st!

 

I 1st did the kali sadhana last year, during navratri, an at the end I saw maa, in my dream, smiling, wearing red but as the divine form, she called herself nayrani... now I only speak English and a little Punjabi... yet when I sat in a very prestigious satchandi yug a few weeks ago... I felt I had heard all the Sanskrit solokas before... although I could not truly translate them word for word I felt maa gave me the shakti to get a basic grasp of what's going on!

 

As for Maa Bagla, I truly love her! She has given so much for me. I visited the bagla temple a few years ago in MP, and again last nov... when I met the high priest, he kept looking at me, I thought it was my Mohawk hairstyle but I know now that he knew somehow, I was to do the baglamukhi sadhana, I was with all my family, maybe 8/9 of us in total and again he kept talking to me, and isolating me out, he then took me and my mum aside and gave me the baglamukhi mantra. and told us to keep it a secret and to worship maa, I told him a difficult time is approaching my life since as a junior doctor, to find a job in central London for anaesthesia and it, is near impossible... months passed and I heard nothing, I stopped my sadhana, being stupid I thought I would get the letter after the first week, then the week before the deadline, I received an e-mail 1 hour from deadline, the day before I did the sadhana, unplanned and begged maa. Every morn I listen to the durga challis and baglamukhi mantra (utube one) on my iPod every morn,,, and lay and behold I got my dream job to maa, my life also improved.. going from a avid party animal, I have become very spiritual and devotee of maa, in all her form...

 

then, a few weeks ago I had a strange dream, I 1st saw a yellow ball, which then became the baglamukhi yantra, then I saw a kind of heavenly place, and a lady with milk, pale complexion, beautiful and so elegant, dressed in gold and a yellow sari answer me, it was definitely maa she answered: hi, this is baglamukhi, to this my heart was filled was so much happiness I felt like crying, then I woke up, and eyes filled with tears,..

 

I feel so happy was chosen and given the opportunity by maa to participate in her sadhana, I truly feel blessed and happy

 

The problem is there are so few ppl familiar with dhumavati,,, where can I find a guru in London who can guide me... kali sadhana I did by myself, bagla mantra was given to me when I visited the bagla temple in HP last Nov. I also went to jawalamkhi.. and asked every1 re dhumavati.. most ppl could understand my four words of Punjabi.. and at this stage my aunts and cousins where bored and sick of my obsession... I feel hungry, and never satisfied about my knowledge for maa dhumvati,, I always want to know more! and I feel no1 can guide me, leaving me very isolated

I feel very sad that I did not find a dhumavati temple!

 

So my question where can I get dhumavati diksha from?

Do I need diksha, if my heart begs for maa

What is her Sadhana for, although in my case I am having much difficulties with my room-mate, and I feel dissatisfied despite having everything, because I feel separated from maa dhumavati, it's my dream above anything to do her sadhana, I feeliso sad and my spirit is so low... I hope some1 answers my prayers

 

pls can any1 advise me

 

Johnny

johnnykenth@doctors.org.uk

place of birth Birmingham uk 28/6/80

time 5:30am

 

I believe my ruling goddess is nritti

 

Namaste

[dhruvbhura 0]

@Jhonny

 

opps! Where was this post lying all this time! How i missed this one & that too for dhoomavati maa.

Yes! you had perfect experience & trust me you have gained good heights in your sadhanas. You expressed those things which i couldnt express till now I really had gooseworms while reading them!

 

Next step - You will have to go to Jodhpur for this Dhoomavati Diksha. If you want i will guide you. I am doing Dhoomavati Mahavidhya sadhana & trust me i dont have words to express how awesome it is!!

She is really so sweet, always smiling, makes me sit next to her, allows me to pamper her, do seva of her. Never ask for bad stuff, she would never return.

 

God bless you! Very happy for you! You have best gems(Kali & Baglamuki) which very rare ppl get & now All the best for Dhoomavati mahavidhya journey.

I will PM you my contact number.

 

Regards,

Dhruv Bhura

Edited July 16, 2009 by dhruvbhura