My dear brother,
I can certainly tell you that you have not gone mad. But do not pay too much attention to what you have seen in your dreams. Kali Ma has no meaning. If you read Ramakrishna Paramahamsa’s story, it is said that he used to converse with Kali ma. He thought that is the ultimate thing which is happening to him. His mentor Tota Puri comes and says what is Kali Ma it is just another manifestation of the divine. Does not really mean anything. We need to seek beyond.
Yes, I agree that in Hindu religion Kali Ma is worshiped, but to my mind it is still another manifestation but not the divine itself.
Coming back to your concern. It could be some impressions, if you believe in past life’s, it could impressions from your past life. Whatever the reason may be, do not pay much importance to it. Because sometimes mind plays tricks on us and we took a path where there is no turning back.
What i have seen in my life so far it is the atheists are the one who talk more about GOD more than the believers. Once a student at the Virginia Tech and her mother came to me for learning meditation. Mother is interested in meditation but not the daughter ( must be in her 20s). Daughter said she is atheist hence not interested in mediation. But she is forced by her mother to start meditation. Let me type the conversation here.
Me: Who is an atheist?
Daughter: The who does not believe in GOD
Me: DO you know why people believe in GOD?
Daughter: I do not know
Me: precisely! Because they do not know the GOD that is why they have to believe. You don’t say when you introduce your mother, I believe she is my mother.
Me: Do you know why people do not believe GOD?
Daughter: not sure
Me: Because they do not believe in the people who believe in GOD. It’s much worst. Forget all these believes and non believes. What is important is not to look for the forms or GODs or GODESSES. To find that ultimate divine in ourselves as a real essence which is inspiring me in this life and I am aspiring to be in that state of happiness by realizing that presence. Without giving it a shape, form or name or any attributes.