Dear Ravikishore,
You are on the right path. You have gone to the highest. Dont give up the Chandi mantra because you are disturbed. Disturbances arises out of your bad samskaras. The bad tendencies will struggle to prevent you from succeeding in this worship. Both Deva and asuras live in our mind - and it is a warfare between the asuras and deva with in you. The asuras in you will make you miserable so that you give up. But sustain do not yield to your mind. Pray to goddess and seek her help to make you strong.
Take bhairo's advise and pray first to Lord Siva with full devotion as your guru before chanting . Then do ganapati chanting for a while with full devotion . Then chant the godess mantra.
Chandi a very high goddess and she grant you anything you want. But she will mature you before giving you her boon. You need to follow celibacy when you chant her mantra. Think of all women as the goddess only - including the one you are in love with.
Dont miss navaratry days. Do intensly puja and chanting on those days, devoting as much time as possible.
You are technically right that any mantra must be chanted as many lackh of times as there are letters in the mantra. By that rule you need to chant this mantra 9 lack of times. But that is only the complete procedure. You need to chant one lack time minimum for siddhi as Bhairo says. Just make that your target first. Later on you intent to complete 9 laks well and good.
And my personal advise to you, from my direct experience: Do not ask for the girl to goddess. (Not that there is any thing wrong in that) . Just love goddess for her own sake. Love goddess alone. That is the most ideal way to worship her. With that way of worshipping she is most pleased. And if you continue this way for three years, she will grand you whatever you want. She can make you a great - very very grereat - being . You simply have no idea what she can really make you.
With her worship your life purpose is fulfilled. Be a worthy bakta and earn her full favour.
Regards,
K.Ravindran
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