Wierd Weekend

10-28-2002, 03:23 AM

I don't know if I need help or need to vent. It seems every time I turned around
this weekend somebody was "slapping me in the face".

First, someone called to see if I had any drugs for her party (with old friends
of both of ours from out of town). When I said "No", say said,"Too bad."
*click* She hangs up.
Then I checked out one Energy work/Kundalini website which I found very
confusing. I wrote them to try and find what info I could. They replied that
"the Universe was about to decide "if I have what it takes" and that I would get
nowhere "threatenening me with dire consequences if I don't give you this
information".

Now ya'll don't really know me it's true. But I grew up around violence and a
butt-load of "dire consequences", believe me - there was nothing of the sorrt in
my email.

My relpy was that I WAS on a spiritual path and that I'd had the good fortune to
find teachers who did not judge my Spirit by my computer skills, and who are
willing to treat me (and my ignorance) with gracious compassion.

I haven't been called rude in many, many years. And I did rewrite this guy to
find out just what he thought was so threatening.

That of course was followed by a night of dreaams about someone from my past
whom I have yet to forgive for a monsterous betrayal. Yeah, I know I have to
deal with the whole forgiveness issue. I'm not sure I'm ready to - I don't use
words like "monsterous" lightly.

So weepy, angry, and frustrated as I am this morning, I am also gratefull for
the non-judgmental compassion I find on this board. Is there a place in our
spiritual path to say F*** Him, he's an a-hole?

Emotionally Fraught,
Sat Nam,
Leo

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10-28-2002, 04:41 AM

Sat Nam Leo,

Don't you love life's challenges?? Once you've vented and released some of
those powerful emotions (and don't condemn yourself for acknowledging
them -- they are good teachers), take a little time to plug into the source
of all that is. It is more powerful than all we see and experience in this
dimension. Those who have harmed and hurt you will reap the karma of their
ignorance.

Someone from the list posted this netsite not long ago. This guy is a real
hoot and you may want to listen to his song about a__h_les. We can all
relate to this one.

love and light
Sioux B

http://www.scottsongs.com/pages/frame_set.html

> Then I checked out one Energy work/Kundalini website which I found very
confusing. I wrote them to try and find what info I could. They replied
that "the Universe was about to decide "if I have what it takes" and that I
would get nowhere "threatenening me with dire consequences if I don't give
you this information".
> My relpy was that I WAS on a spiritual path and that I'd had the good
fortune to find teachers who did not judge my Spirit by my computer skills,
and who are willing to treat me (and my ignorance) with gracious compassion.
> I haven't been called rude in many, many years. And I did rewrite this
guy to find out just what he thought was so threatening.
> That of course was followed by a night of dreaams about someone from my
past whom I have yet to forgive for a monsterous betrayal. Yeah, I know I
have to deal with the whole forgiveness issue. I'm not sure I'm ready to -
I don't use words like "monsterous" lightly. > So weepy, angry, and
frustrated as I am this morning, I am also gratefull for the non-judgmental
compassion I find on this board. Is there a place in our spiritual path to
say F*** Him, he's an a-hole?
>
> Emotionally
Fraught,
> Sat Nam,
> Leo
>
>

10-28-2002, 09:15 AM

Hi Leo
I love reading your emails. You have such a wonderful combination of open
vulnerability and enthusiasm towards getting the most out of your journey. And
you're darn funny!
My reaction to your Weird Weekend is along the lines of you getting the tests
and lessons your soul is ready to take on. Only you can answer what the message
is about the friend who was only interested in you as a conduit for
drugs...maybe just letting her go?
As for that completely bizarre reaction from the email, I think you answered
your own question in that it was followed immediately by the dream. Perhaps the
emotional upset allowed the issue around forgiveness to come up...maybe you need
to go into that.
I have no doubt that when the sting of the pain subsides you will see the lesson
underneath it all.
Sat Nam (and since I'm from Canada and not the south I won't say y'all, even
though I'd like to)..so Sat Nam ...eh?
Jane
Leo Miller wrote:

> I don't know if I need help or need to vent. It seems every time I turned
around this weekend somebody was "slapping me in the face".
>
> First, someone called to see if I had any drugs for her party (with old
friends of both of ours from out of town). When I said "No", say said,"Too
bad." *click* She hangs up.
> Then I checked out one Energy work/Kundalini website which I found very
confusing. I wrote them to try and find what info I could. They replied that
"the Universe was about to decide "if I have what it takes" and that I would get
nowhere "threatenening me with dire consequences if I don't give you this
information".
>
> Now ya'll don't really know me it's true. But I grew up around violence and a
butt-load of "dire consequences", believe me - there was nothing of the sorrt in
my email.
>
> My relpy was that I WAS on a spiritual path and that I'd had the good fortune
to find teachers who did not judge my Spirit by my computer skills, and who are
willing to treat me (and my ignorance) with gracious compassion.
>
> I haven't been called rude in many, many years. And I did rewrite this guy to
find out just what he thought was so threatening.
>
> That of course was followed by a night of dreaams about someone from my past
whom I have yet to forgive for a monsterous betrayal. Yeah, I know I have to
deal with the whole forgiveness issue. I'm not sure I'm ready to - I don't use
words like "monsterous" lightly.
>
> So weepy, angry, and frustrated as I am this morning, I am also gratefull for
the non-judgmental compassion I find on this board. Is there a place in our
spiritual path to say F*** Him, he's an a-hole?
>
> Emotionally Fraught,
> Sat Nam,
> Leo
>
> [Non-text portions of this message have been removed]
>
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10-28-2002, 11:19 AM

I heard a great idea for a bumper sticker. "Eliminate the Middle Man. Satan
for President in 2004"

Humor and politics aside, it's true that you will be tested on many levels
as you give up the familiar attachments. It like when you stop running after
things and become strong from within your spirituality, then things come
running after you! Nature abhors a void, if we just bare to empty our cup
and not freak out over the emptiness (I'm reminded about that pumpkin pie I
inhaled yesterday all by myself......ooh!) then all kinds of neat things
will come before your feet.. You, my friend, may need an agent/bodyguard
because you are so accessible. This isn't meant to scare you, but people
have all kinds of subconscious agendas and that can mean you'll be sucked
dry if you aren't clear about your boundaries. You give father milk and
might attract bus loads of folks who never had gentle male energy, or hell,
gentle mother energy!
What's your full birthday?? I'd like to look at your numbers. I am feeling a
"Four" and/or a "Seven" in your chart.
I does sound like whoever you emailed had terrible "bedside manner". Fear
tactics are too common. You might do us all a favor if you could share the
source of this info. And BTW, foul language is almost as good as Elephant
Kriya. Don't swallow that nonsense down....regurgitate it.
Be well, brother, and as Yogiji says "be contained, content and continuous"
Dharam

----- Original Message -----
From: "Leo Miller"

> I don't know if I need help or need to vent. It seems every time I turned
around this weekend somebody was "slapping me in the face".
>
> First, someone called to see if I had any drugs for her party (with old
friends of both of ours from out of town). When I said "No", say said,"Too
bad." *click* She hangs up.
> Then I checked out one Energy work/Kundalini website which I found very
confusing. I wrote them to try and find what info I could. They replied
that "the Universe was about to decide "if I have what it takes" and that I
would get nowhere "threatenening me with dire consequences if I don't give
you this information".
>
> Now ya'll don't really know me it's true. But I grew up around violence
and a butt-load of "dire consequences", believe me - there was nothing of
the sorrt in my email.
>
> My relpy was that I WAS on a spiritual path and that I'd had the good
fortune to find teachers who did not judge my Spirit by my computer skills,
and who are willing to treat me (and my ignorance) with gracious compassion.
>
> I haven't been called rude in many, many years. And I did rewrite this
guy to find out just what he thought was so threatening.
>
> That of course was followed by a night of dreaams about someone from my
past whom I have yet to forgive for a monsterous betrayal. Yeah, I know I
have to deal with the whole forgiveness issue. I'm not sure I'm ready to -
I don't use words like "monsterous" lightly.
>
> So weepy, angry, and frustrated as I am this morning, I am also gratefull
for the non-judgmental compassion I find on this board. Is there a place in
our spiritual path to say F*** Him, he's an a-hole?
>
> Emotionally
Fraught,
> Sat Nam,
> Leo
>

10-29-2002, 04:27 AM

Leo,

Leo Miller wrote:

> Is there a place in our spiritual path to say F*** Him, he's an a-hole?
>

I think Yogiji would just advise us to say, "God bless you," to the
offensive person and leave it at that. Returning, or passing around
the negativity ultimately is not a very helpful response.

Steve Porter

passionate_freak · 09-06-2007, 11:57 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Leo Miller

I don't know if I need help or need to vent. It seems every time I turned around
this weekend somebody was "slapping me in the face".

First, someone called to see if I had any drugs for her party (with old friends
of both of ours from out of town). When I said "No", say said,"Too bad."
*click* She hangs up.
Then I checked out one Energy work/Kundalini website which I found very
confusing. I wrote them to try and find what info I could. They replied that
"the Universe was about to decide "if I have what it takes" and that I would get
nowhere "threatenening me with dire consequences if I don't give you this
information".

Now ya'll don't really know me it's true. But I grew up around violence and a
butt-load of "dire consequences", believe me - there was nothing of the sorrt in
my email.

My relpy was that I WAS on a spiritual path and that I'd had the good fortune to
find teachers who did not judge my Spirit by my computer skills, and who are
willing to treat me (and my ignorance) with gracious compassion.

I haven't been called rude in many, many years. And I did rewrite this guy to
find out just what he thought was so threatening.

That of course was followed by a night of dreaams about someone from my past
whom I have yet to forgive for a monsterous betrayal. Yeah, I know I have to
deal with the whole forgiveness issue. I'm not sure I'm ready to - I don't use
words like "monsterous" lightly.

So weepy, angry, and frustrated as I am this morning, I am also gratefull for
the non-judgmental compassion I find on this board. Is there a place in our
spiritual path to say F*** Him, he's an a-hole?

Emotionally Fraught,
Sat Nam,
Leo

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Dear Leo,

Somewhat our life is ruled by our past Karma and deeds and full of consequences. It doesn't mean we are incapable casting off the revenues. Only we need a capable Guru for it, which is just rare. IT's exactly what went with you.
THe guy you contacted is just with few bookish knowledge and physical stretching in the name of Kundalini Yoga kind of stuffs.
Kundalini is not the piece of a cake available in the streets so don't rely on anyone among the crowd. Capable ones never claim what they are.

Dreams are the part of our life and with significant role in every facets. Sometimes might be showing the past events...sometimes the future...

Guru from our past lives can reach us to the perfection, but only the Satguru. Are you in the quest my friend where everything seems worthless??? Rely on your soul, ask intensly for the guidance before you go to the sleep and you'd get an answer. And be sure not to be misguided by so called Gurus and Bhagavans in the teritory. I too in the quest and after 16 years of search I've landed somewhere in the firm ground but I'm with fear to lose it again in close future as the person's telling to leave the physical body.

regards
PF