Re: Your Devi Mandir message

09-28-2003, 02:01 AM

Rick,

Hello there. Thank you for your kind words. I am definately an emotional child of Ma
and I too have been seen as a little 'out there' or too passionate for
my own good. Sounds like you also have similar emotional nature. As
I try to relate to other devotee's who are a bit more 'contained and
intellectual' I often have to come back to center and accept my
nature for what it is and for me it works.

A prominant Shamanic Tantric from south India who is my closest friend
gave me some advice when I was being brutally judged by rather mean
spirited devotees that when devotee's try and institutionalize Shakti
and bind her with rules, she is forced into the wilderness where she
can be found by those like you and me and others with a more
emotional and raw disposition. When out in the wilderness or desert
by yourself and Her, it is so profound, and to think I heard a sadhu
tell me there were no holy sites in the US. If She is in your heart
and mind, then everywhere you walk is Holy Ground.

One example of this type of behavior of Ma is The Holy Mother, Sri
Sarada Devi. I was redeemed 10 years after my fitfull
tears-struck-sadhana, in 2000 to read that Ramakrishna cried like
that too and others thought he was insane. I can relate to that
part of Ramakrisha totally, however I feel Holy Mother was a true
example of Mother in human form - She never turned anyone away that I
know of. She is a perfect example of Ma in human form. I feel a
psychic 'SCRATCH' in my body when I hear of devotee's being rejected,
it actually physically hurts me whether or not it was done to me by
another or from another to another. In fact, my old teacher when I
was 20-24 who introduced me to Kali in this lifetime didn't
understand the intensity of my tears and would call me names.... My
own teacher!! For some I guess it's not for them to experience Ma
this way and that is ok. I never want Ma to
take away my juicy devotion or my optimism and the more 'raw' children
she can bring my way to relate to, I'll consider myself so lucky.
Satanic name calling is so silly..I hope it slid off. If they only
knew and in time they will know...

Ma will bestow certain knowledge to people who cry sincere tears,
alone with her. I can't emphasize that enough and that I why I keep
saying it over and over. It's unshakable awareness from experience,
your right. I could feel your liguid gratitude

You are not alone
and thank you Rick for letting me know you understand and could
relate. Ma came thru YOU at the nick of time... Thank you Ma!

Blessings to you and I pray you are blessed with even more of Her.
Can you post the prayer on the web for all of us to read?

Namaste

Pranams.
KellyRikzinger (AT) comcast (DOT) net> wrote:
Dear Kelly,

I cannot thank you enough for your post. So many of your experiences
of Maa are the same as mine. I am almost 50 years old, and all my
life She has been my faithful and patient companion. I have always
known Her pure and sacred love, and She has revealed it in me each
step of my life.

I have a prayer that I found a couple of months ago that starts out,
“I ask for my Guru Devi’s blessings. They are with me here and now.
Oh Devi, I have laid aside all of my masks…” Most mornings as I begin
this prayer, I cannot get past “Guru Devi’s blessings” and the tears
are streaming. Even now as I write this I feel Her precious love and
it fills my eyes with liquid gratitude. But when I get to “Oh Devi,”
I often get no further. I sit enraptured in Her sacred embrace and
repeat over and over “Oh Devi.”

Throughout my life I have been considered a bit nutty. I have even
been called Satanic because of my unshakeable awareness of Her. How
can I ever deny such power and grace intermingled within my own
being?

I just had the thank Her for writing your note to me.

In Her love always,

Rick
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09-28-2003, 07:15 AM

To Kelly and all,

This is the prayer I mentioned to
Kelly. It was written by the famous Shakta guru Sri
Amritananda Natha Saraswati (Guruji).
The link to its source is below. Jai Maa!

“I ask
for my Guru Devi’s blessings. They are with me here and now.

1. Oh
Devi, I have removed all my masks: anger, doubt, fear, shame, aversion, family,
race and expectations of my conduct.

2. I
have kept a fresh soft lotus in my heart for you to come and occupy.

3. I
entreat you, please come, and enter it with your refreshingly cool and
lotus-golden- white lights.

4. Fill
me from head to toe with your glorious love, beauty, pleasure, wisdom, light,
music, dance, poetry and compassion.

5. Let
me enjoy waves after waves of these qualities in an unending series.

6.
Protect me from evil.

7. I am
open to your direction from within and without.
yes"> Bless me in a crystal clear voice. Let me see your divine
vision constantly in the lake of my clear mind and with my physical eyes.

8.
Never leave me even for a moment.

9. I
will not live without you. When my
time comes, take me into your heart.

10.
Enable me to be useful to all living beings to make them realize your beauty
and love. This is my constant prayer, aspiration and goal of my life.”

The
source is found at http://gurujiamrita.tripod.com/see_goddess_fast.htm
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In Her love forever,
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From: Kelly Leeper
[mailto:blissnout (AT) yahoo (DOT) com]
Sent: Sunday, September 28, 2003
2:02 AM
To: Rick Nafzinger
Cc: Devi_Mandir (AT) yahoogroups (DOT) com
Subject: [Devi_Mandir] Re: Your
Devi Mandir message

Rick,
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and I too
have been seen as a little 'out there' or too passionate for my own
good. Sounds like you also have similar emotional nature. As
I try to relate to other devotee's who are a bit more 'contained and
intellectual' I often have to come back to center and accept my nature
for what it is and for me it works.

A prominant
Shamanic Tantric from south India who is my closest friend gave me some
advice when I was being brutally judged by rather mean spirited
devotees that when devotee's try and institutionalize Shakti and bind her
with rules, she is forced into the wilderness where she can be found by
those like you and me and others with a more emotional and raw
disposition. When out in the wilderness or desert by yourself and
Her, it is so profound, and to think I heard a sadhu tell me there
were no holy sites in the US. If She is in your heart and mind, then
everywhere you walk is Holy Ground.

One example
of this type of behavior of Ma is The Holy Mother, Sri Sarada
Devi. I was redeemed 10 years after my fitfull
tears-struck-sadhana, in 2000 to read that Ramakrishna cried like
that too and others thought he was insane. I can relate to that
part of Ramakrisha totally, however I feel Holy Mother was a
true example of Mother in human form - She never turned anyone away that I know
of. She is a perfect example of Ma in human form. I feel a psychic
'SCRATCH' in my body when I hear of devotee's being rejected, it actually
physically hurts me whether or not it was done to me by another or
from another to another. In fact, my old teacher when I was 20-24
who introduced me to Kali in this lifetime didn't understand the intensity of my
tears and would call me names.... My own teacher!! For some I
guess it's not for them to experience Ma this way and that is ok. I never
want Ma to take away my juicy devotion or my optimism and the more 'raw'
children she can bring my way to relate to, I'll consider myself so
lucky. Satanic name calling is so silly..I hope it slid off.
If they only knew and in time they will know...

Ma will
bestow certain knowledge to people who cry sincere tears, alone with her.
I can't emphasize that enough and that I why I keep saying it over and
over. It's unshakable awareness from experience, your
right. I could feel your liguid gratitude

You are not
alone and thank you Rick for letting me know you understand and could relate.
Ma came thru YOU at the nick of time... Thank you Ma!

Blessings to
you and I pray you are blessed with even more of Her. Can you
post the prayer on the web for all of us to read?

Namaste

Pranams.
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10.0pt;font-family:Arial">I cannot thank you enough for your post. So many of
your experiences of Maa are the same as mine. I am almost 50 years old, and all
my life She has been my faithful and patient companion. I have always known Her
pure and sacred love, and She has revealed it in me each step of my life.
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10.0pt;font-family:Arial">I have a prayer that I found a couple of months ago
that starts out, “I ask for my Guru Devi’s blessings. They are with me here and
now. Oh Devi, I have laid aside all of my masks…” Most mornings as I begin this
prayer, I cannot get past “Guru Devi’s blessings” and the tears are streaming.
Even now as I write this I feel Her precious love and it fills my eyes with
liquid gratitude. But when I get to “Oh Devi,” I often get no further. I sit
enraptured in Her sacred embrace and repeat over and over “Oh Devi.”
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