Re: Muscle tests and K happenings

03-31-2000, 04:36 AM

Hi Dharma,
Thanx for sending me the instructions on finger signals and muscle
testing. l tried to start the finger signaling yesterday -- l spread out my
hands and asked my subconscious to choose a "yes" finger, and guess what?
Nothing happened; none of the fingers moved. Ha ha, given that l've never
been any good at anything like this, why aren't l surprised? lf there's
anyone who'd fail this, it'd be me.

l was going to try again today, but it hasn't felt like a good time.
l was awakened at 3 am last nite (after just 2 hrs sleep) by my energy
erupting: body vibrating, nauseous, energy flowing busily from my feet up
thru my stomach and brow, my butt feeling hot and my left big toe stinging
like hell. l finally got some sleep, and it's all pretty much still with me
today.

So it's back to the soft, bland food menu for now ... and after some
light water aerobics, a nap would be nice. Given that l went years with the
energy blocked and not moving, l should probably feel grateful -- but l
confess to some ambivalence, as opposed to the more positive feelings l once
had. l'm so tired of my life being disrupted. l'm also mindful about
adjusting my attitude, not wanting to either resist or push this. Hey, maybe
k will pleasantly surprise me at last. After all, it's treated me better than
some people l know.
love,
jerry