Dear Karushka,

yes it is very diffiult to follow rules and regulations. So many little things, so many ways to break them, so many almost trivial "yes's" and "no's" that we actually see no reason for.

God loves us all. We are his little parts and particles. We are his children, we are his creation, made, controled and distroyed by him. And in our hearts there is Sri Krishna, knowing us better then we know ourselves.

We do not belong to any human being. We do not belong to any race, any family, country or social caste. We are spiritual same as dear Lord Sri Krishna.

But, in order to be aware of that love, to have actual spiritual realization, to actually understand it we must bring ourselves to such a level and that is why so many things are required.

His love is uncoditional, he does not love you less if I break rules. But, when I break a rule, it is same as trying to watch the world with eyes shut.