Hi gga, you have not explained your situation fully or well enough. it is clear that by now there are multiple issues going on - work and health related; but you say that you are facing problems since you got married and moved to the UK. Since when are you working in this job; when did the bullying begin, what are the reasons? There are good labor regulations that apply in most countries. Do not let your panic or fear from one set of issues get into the other set of issues. If you can, clearly list what are the issues at work and what are the medical problems - they both may be worrying you differently and may need different kind of attention.

Your medical problems are bound to lead to fear and worry and panic, leave aside the physical pain. But to manage your treatment plan well, you have to be more organized in your thoughts first and then make realistic plans.

First of all, accept the complexity of life as God's will. then take an account of your problems and think what is doable in this context and what do you have control on. O course you can make a difference with your attitude. Look for support groups on the internet regarding your illness. Educate yourself about the prognosis of the diesease and how it may efect your work, family and personal life. REad about how other people are managing their illness and life.

If you write more, we can discuss a few more things. But panic is the last thing that will help and being fatalistic does not go well with the teachings of Bhagwat Gita. Be a karmayogi.

At work, your panic may be creating a negative impact on your performance. YOu have not given any inidcation of what is the problem at work. Some may be problematic anywhere, but everywhere, there are sensible people too.

Take a careul good account of your situation with a level and cool mind.

take care