Pranams

Respected Bhairoji, my humble pranams to you. As per all the messages you have posted, i understand you are a very highly elevated siddha or a rishi. Indeed it is my luck to come across this forum where many learned people like you are there to guide us. I got Durga devi's mantram 4 years back and i have been told that my goddess is Durga. From then onwards i am chanting my mantra everyday 108 times. And i will be repeating without any count whenever i feel like repeating. I am having 2 kids and my in-laws are very old so i am very busy with house hold chores. Even though its not an excuse for not doing mantra japa many times. I also read lalitha sahasranamam, khadgmala stotram, many slokams related to Durga, Lakshmi and slokas of Ganapati, Lord Shiva, Lord Subramanya, Dakshinamurty etc almost everyday without missing.
I humbly request you to please tell me when can i achieve my goal of seeing Goddess and who is my Guru? I request you to guide me howto proceed further? My elder son Sri Aurobindo studying 7th std. is also very much inclined to spirituality. Even my little son Sriram going 1st std. also does japa with us for 1 mala. I want to know who is the Guru of my elder son and my younger son. I asked my elder son to do japa of Saraswati devi everyday. He is doing it for 2 malas everyday and insists me also to do. So i am also doing saraswati devi's mantra along with him. Can i do japa of 2 different mantras for Durga and Saraswati?

Please reply to all my queries and i am really sorry for taking your time.

Thank you
with humble pranams again
Sesi.