--- In Ammachi (AT) yahoogroups (DOT) com, "tom" <tomgull@...> wrote:
>
> Amarnath, you fit the profile of those I've met
> who've actually left
> their guru: ...
>
> tom
> >>>>

Brother Tom, Namaskar!

Thank you for your concern about me.
You say that I have left my Guru.
Is it really so?

Why then are the sacred words Amma, Ma, my Amma Mantra ever on my
lips, my breath, my thoughts?

Why then is Amma's Form ever before my gaze?

Why then is the Formless Inner Amma ever pulling me into Silence?

True, my strong ego is still fighting for survival

With weapons of intellectual reasoning wanting understandings,
on the one hand

And on the other hand, chronic bodily pains and miseries

Which strangely enough disappear for the time being
When handing out Veggie Wraps to the homeless

Yes, the ego is still struggling and pleading with Amma
To do what it wants
To make it( the ego ) spiritual
To heal/change this person or that

To make this forum a sacred sanctuary
But then without your challenging posts
Would these words emerge?

But, it is definitely too late to leave Amma
For Amma Kali has a noose around my ego's neck
And is chasing "me" with a sharp scimitar

Ego knows it is doomed and is pleading for an easy death
To Wake up on a sunny morning without "me"

My blessings for you Tom,
is that Amma Kali also put your ego out of its miseries soon
but only if you want?

Perhaps, you are trying too hard?
Perhaps, it is time to let go and let Amma?
but only if you want?

my 2cents!

Amma Bless,
amarnath

LET GO AND LET GOD!
one word of friendly warning:
what we project on others unjustly/erroneously
karmically has to come to us. Amma said so in some story.